Chapter 45
I felt no threat that he would harm me, even though he looked so unfamiliar that I felt chills run down my spine.
I felt like his gaze calmed me down.
As I calmed down, my face, which had been in tears, began to clearly see him.
Obviously, I was still confused by Adelio, but a habit was really a scary thing.
Before I knew it, I opened my mouth and told Adelio my troubles.
“My grandmother came to the mansion because of my sister’s engagement.”
“You mean Grand Duchess Liviatan. I’ve heard of it.”
“My grandmother was very angry that my sister’s engagement was broken, but I thought she would go away quickly once her feelings were sorted out.”
Still, perhaps because we talked without looking at each other’s faces, my worries easily poured out.
“But she didn’t go away and pushed for a new engagement.”
“…No way?”
“Yes. My engagement. She pushed for my engagement with the First Prince.”
Adelio said nothing.
Because I was in his arms, I couldn’t see his face, so I didn’t know what he was thinking.
‘I’m a fool, too. Why am I doing this to Adelio again?’
I tried not to deal with Adelio until my thoughts were sorted out, but nothing really went the way I expected.
‘No. In the first place, I can’t even cut ties if I want to get my belongings back.’
When did I ever meet Adelio?
‘It’s not urgent right now.’
The constant events were breaking my head.
In the meantime, if I had to pay attention to Adelio too, I might collapse due to a nervous breakdown.
‘Whatever.’
I just kept talking, thinking that his silence meant that he was listening.
“The atmosphere in the house got messed up because of me. I ran away because I wanted to think about it a little more. Why am I such a coward?”
“Don’t think like that.”
Adelio carefully removed me and put me back in my chair.
“What do you want to do, Daisy?”
He also sat down next to me and carefully held my hand.
“Do you want to be engaged to him?”
When his warm body temperature touched me, my throbbing heart felt a little relieved.
“…I don’t want to get engaged.”
“If you don’t want to, you don’t have to. No one can bend your opinion.”
“Yes. If I don’t want to do it, then I shouldn’t do it… .”
I shook my head even though he knew Adelio’s words were the answer.
“But do I have a choice? There are very few ways a half-noble with commoner blood can prove her worth.”
These were words I brought out to make Adelio understand, but funny enough, they were all words that I used to brainwash myself.
You must never disobey, you must prove your worth and become a great person for the family.
My parents, older sisters, and even my grandmother were like that, so I reflected on it as if I was determined that I should be able to do the same.
‘I am stupid.’
How could I call this counseling?
I was basically just whining.
A sigh came out naturally in a situation that only made each other tired, nothing more and nothing less.
‘I shouldn’t have told him.’
As I was smiling bitterly with deep regret, the quiet Adelio called me with a soft voice.
“Daisy.”
Adelio must have had enough of me now.
How could he be attached to a person who was negative every time?
I didn’t have the confidence to look at him, so I looked at the hand holding him, but he called my name again.
“Look at me, Daisy.”
Hearing the voice wasn’t mixing with contempt, I slowly raised my head and looked at him.
Adelio was looking at me with a hardened look.
Unlike his friendly voice, his expression was cold, which really scared me.
“Do you remember what I said? Whatever Daisy wants will come true.”
“…Yes. I remember.”
I recalled his words of support that sounded like a fairy’s spell.
Since then, I really reconciled with my sisters and got along better, so how could I forget them?
“There are prerequisites for that statement.”
“Prerequisites?”
Adelio’s eyes flashed red for a moment.
When I blinked to see if I was seeing it wrong, I saw his usual clear blue eyes, and I felt a little bewildered.
Then Adelio opened his mouth again.
“Act for what you want. Miracles don’t happen if you don’t do anything just because the answer is set.”
His harsh advice brought me back to my senses.
“If you want a miracle, you have to act on your own. Nothing changes if you just make a wish and lean on others.”
I couldn’t avoid Adelio’s eyes.
Because I felt like if I avoided the intense gaze that seemingly would engrave it clearly into my head, this would be the last time we met.
And above all, Adelio was right.
Making a wish to God was just giving me comfort, and unless I took action myself, it was no different from getting stuck.
Adelio’s advice reminded me of my sisters’ past moves.
‘In order to get what they wanted, Sisters didn’t run away.’
In order to achieve what they wanted, they confronted and solved it, and finally got what they wanted in their hands.
And I also did my best to prevent them from falling into danger.
‘I worked hard for Sisters, but why didn’t I try for myself?’
I regretted that I hadn’t been caring for myself.
With him, I had the courage to at least face this situation.
I had enough of running away once just because I got scared.
“…Thank you.”
What I had to do now was not to cry out to God earnestly in this place.
I had to organize the current situation and think about how I could break through this.
My heart hurt a little at the fact that I got prickly advice instead of a friendly consolation, but it was clearly the most helpful advice I needed at this moment.
I wiped off the tears on my face and smiled.
“I still don’t remember meeting you. But if I try, I’ll be able to remember it someday.”
“As I said last time…. You don’t have to remember.”
Adelio continued in a calm tone.
“Even if you don’t remember, our relationship won’t change.”
At Adelio’s words, I shook my head.
“It made me want to remember.”
What kind of meeting did we have that I gave Adelio the pendant as a gift?
I wanted to know.
Not from Adelio’s mouth, but from remembering it myself.
I rose from my seat and glanced up as I tidied up my crumpled clothes.
Is it because of my mood? The white sunlight shining through the window felt especially sacred these days.
“It’s unfair if I’m the only one who doesn’t remember.”
Even if I wasn’t in a situation to smile, a smile bloomed around my mouth.
If I went back to the mansion right away, I would have to face my grandmother and decide what to do.
I was afraid, but I didn’t want to do the act of running away again like today.
If I recklessly ran away, only the worst results waited for me.
I wanted to solve everything about Adelio and my grandmother face-to-face.
I want to do my best so that I didn’t feel ashamed of myself.
“Next time I’ll come to see Adelio.”
After making a promise I would never have made again, I left him and walked away.
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Daisy walked out of the prayer room with confident steps unlike when she entered, saying that he didn’t need to see her off today.
It wasn’t until long after she left that Adelio covered his mouth and burst into laughter.
“Haha.”
Unlike his usual friendly image, the laughter that burst out of his mouth was full of mischievous joy.
Adelio fiddled with the pendant around his neck and recalled his meeting with Daisy.
With a faint smile, his hand twitched as he recalled that moment when she clasped the small pendant.
“She hasn’t changed.”
At the figure that was that was no different from his memory, he couldn’t stop smiling.
“She doesn’t lose hope even in despair.”
Daisy was always like that.
She seemed very soft-hearted, but she was so strong that she couldn’t be compared to anyone.
So he became interested.
He couldn’t take his eyes off her, wondering when that hope would be dashed.
“It’s funny though.”
It was also fun to see her in person, but it was a shame that they kept meeting less and less.
As soon as he came to the temple, he met Daisy so he thought he had chosen this place well, but that didn’t seem to be the case.
‘She was really able to make up with those women.’
Maybe it was possible for Daisy.
He wondered if the reason Daisy didn’t come to the temple so often was because she reconciled with her sisters.
Engagement in the midst of all this?
“I think she will visit the temple less. Should I stop doing this?”
Adelio brushed his hair and raised his head to see the window lit by bright light.
The large prayer room was quiet, and the light that fell into it exuded an atmosphere full of dignity, as if a god was looking down.
That sight was so funny because Adelio had erased his smile and turned his head with a cold expression.
“First Prince, she said.”
He remembered Daisy standing next to a man with a slick appearance.
His hand tightened as he imagined Daisy standing next to him with a tearful and sad face.
His brow, which had maintained his composure, furrowed.
He murmured in a low voice.
“I don’t like it.”
To think that the first person he got interested in was depressed and distressed because of such a guy.
It wasn’t what he wanted.
“What should I do?”
Should he directly step up?
Adelio began to slowly exit the prayer room, muttering softly.
Before he knew it, his usual friendly holy knight smile formed on his lips.