Romantic Gangster

#71

Ji-woo was momentarily at a loss for words. The things he had in his mind, the words he had arranged to carefully convey to Hyun-joon one by one, had all vanished into thin air. 

“Wh-what does that mean…”

“I can see it. Your excited face.”

“……”

“I know from the moment I put my hand in your pants, you can’t look me in the eyes properly.”

“……”

“I know you can’t hide your pheromones well when you’re excited.”

Ji-woo was so flustered that he couldn’t properly process what Hyun-joon was saying at the moment. His mind knew, but he was so embarrassed that he wanted to keep denying it.

“Ah, do you know how hard I’ve been holding back, Ji-woo?”  

“…W-when did you know?”

“I knew for sure when you came out of the shower and avoided me. You couldn’t look at me properly, your ears and face were all red, and you couldn’t make excuses well, so I knew then.”

“…How did you know from that? I was worried you’d misunderstand…”

“Misunderstand what?”

“That I was avoiding you because I don’t like you…”

Hyun-joon laughed lightly at Ji-woo’s words and moved a little closer, pressing his leg between Ji-woo’s and aligning their bodies.

“It wasn’t that kind of face. It was fucking sexy and pretty.”

“……”  

“And you’re saying your pheromones leak out that much every time you see me even though you don’t like me? You can’t control it at all right now. You didn’t know that either. Do you know how hard I tried to pretend not to notice? Huh? I was going to let it slide in case you felt embarrassed, but how can I hold back if you’re like this.”

Hyun-joon smiled as he pressed their bodies together without a single gap… It was still embarrassing… but he felt relieved to be caught. Ji-woo relaxed his unnecessary tension and rubbed his face against Hyun-joon’s hand caressing his cheek.  

“…I’m weird, Hyun-joon. I keep feeling cold, and I don’t think I can control my pheromones well… When I see you…” 

“Yeah, when you see me?”

“…I keep… having those thoughts…”

“Those thoughts?”

There was no way Hyun-joon, who knew his state just by looking at his face, wouldn’t know what he meant by “those thoughts.” But Ji-woo didn’t find it annoying that he pretended not to know and asked again. Rather, it was evident from his expression that he wanted to hear it directly from Ji-woo, which felt nice.

“…Naughty thoughts.”

“…Fuck. I asked because I wanted to hear it, but damn, actually hearing it makes me go crazy. Ah, I really felt dizzy just now.” 

“…I really am weird, right?”

“If you’re weird, then what am I? I have those thoughts every day when I see you, and even when I don’t see you. I only dream about doing it with you even in my sleep.”

Hyun-joon slipped his hand under the blanket and delved into the inside where their bodies were pressed together without a gap. Ji-woo’s body was already hot with excitement, and the electric mattress was so warm that it felt like his hand would melt. Hyun-joon grabbed Ji-woo’s erect penis over his clothes just like that. He didn’t even use force, just holding it still, but Ji-woo’s body trembled.

“I want to do it, Ji-woo.”

“……”

“Can I?”

As he moved his face a little closer and pressed their lips together, Ji-woo’s lips quivered against his. The urge to penetrate and act on his own surged instantly. 

Every time he smelled the sweet scent of castella, he felt like a person who had been starving for days. He felt like he would die if he didn’t devour the castella in front of him in one bite, and he couldn’t think of anything else except wanting to put the castella in his mouth.

“…Yeah.”

Hyun-joon’s tongue teased Ji-woo’s mouth as if torturing him. He rubbed the tip of his tongue gently, not sucking but repeatedly biting and releasing his lower lip, and soon Ji-woo gave his permission. It was small but clear permission.

“I’m not going to end with just rubbing today, but is that still okay?”  

Ji-woo let out a weak moan as Hyun-joon slightly rubbed their genitals together. Seeing the castella melting from the heat he gave was always very exciting.

“…Yeah… It’s okay.”

Upon receiving clear permission again, Hyun-joon tried to calm his surging emotions and straddled Ji-woo’s body. Although he had imagined doing this with Ji-woo before, even from the time they were rubbing against each other, he didn’t expect it to happen so suddenly, so he was nervous to the point of being excessive.

“I’ve thought about sleeping with you thousands of times, but now that we’re actually doing it, I don’t know where to start. Wow, I feel like my head is really broken.”

“Then… should we do it next time?”  

“No, let’s do it now. I’m just going to do what I want without thinking.”

“…Do you know how to do it?”

“Well… I know the theory. I looked it up a few times before. I watched a few videos too, but watching other people do it wasn’t arousing at all.”

Hyun-joon lowered his head and gently sought Ji-woo’s lips again. From the moment he saw Ji-woo greatly reacting and not knowing what to do with just a slight touch of his hand, he wasn’t in his right mind.

He had the urge to approach Ji-woo, who was backing away as if avoiding him, and act on his own several times. When Ji-woo didn’t come out of the bathroom for a long time, he had all sorts of thoughts. He did countless push-ups to hold himself back from putting his ear against the bathroom door, wondering if Ji-woo was doing it alone.  

But still… He held back like that… Now Ji-woo was underneath him. It was the most difficult thing to come to his senses properly more than anything else. It was the easiest thing in the world for a dominant alpha to control their pheromones, but he was so excited now that he couldn’t do it well, so he needed to calm down a bit.

To think he would go all the way with Ji-woo… It was hard for him to keep the line while rubbing against each other and touching Ji-woo while kissing, worrying that Ji-woo might feel repulsed, but now Ji-woo had permitted him to go beyond that. That it was okay. That it was okay to touch and enter deeper places. Just that permission alone made Hyun-joon feel like he could come once and start.

“Can I turn off the mattress? Are you still cold now?”

“…No, I’m not cold. You can turn it off… I feel a bit hot.”

Hyun-joon reached out and turned off the electric mattress, then tilted his head again to seek Ji-woo’s lips. It felt nice to intertwine familiarly and naturally mix body temperatures. To think that kissing him was natural for Seo Ji-woo… The stimulation was too strong. 

Hyun-joon, who was rubbing the tip of Ji-woo’s tongue that felt hotter than usual today, slipped his hand under the loose t-shirt. The heat from the electric mattress and Ji-woo’s body temperature, which was hotter than usual, mixed together, and his body was already soft.

“…Haa…”

Hyun-joon let out a long breath slowly and lowered his hand while inhaling the scent of castella spreading to the point of making it difficult to breathe deep into his body.

Hoping that his castella wouldn’t melt too quickly in this heat.

* * *

Waking up to the sound of the alarm, Ji-woo moved his hand to the side of his pillow where he always kept his cell phone and turned off the alarm in a daze. He had to open his eyes, but they wouldn’t open. He didn’t even think to check the time, and he didn’t have the strength to lower his hand holding the cell phone back under the blanket.

Ji-woo, who fell asleep again holding his cell phone like that, woke up again after 10 o’clock. Fortunately, his eyes opened this time.

After checking the time of 10:22, he felt guilty for sleeping too long compared to what he had thought, but he didn’t have much regret. His body felt languid and his mind was hazy, as if he could sleep all day like this.

Ji-woo, who tapped his mouth while yawning softly, opened his sleepy eyes and looked at Hyun-joon lying next to him. Seeing his sleeping face lying down without covering the blanket and facing his side made him laugh even though he was still half-asleep.

“……”

The feeling of Hyun-joon entering deep inside him last night was still vivid. The feeling of him moving while filling his stomach tightly also came to mind, and the gaze that kept watching over him appeared clearly in front of his eyes.  

It would be a lie to say he wasn’t embarrassed at all, but it was still good. He was a little scared before doing it, but now he wasn’t scared at all and it just felt so, so good. To think that he went all the way with Hyun-joon… Love sprang up in his heart and spread here and there. He liked Hyun-joon so much that he couldn’t control it. Ji-woo moved his body and snuggled up to Hyun-joon’s sleeping embrace.

“Mm…”

Ji-woo, who was pleased that Hyun-joon put his arm around him even in his sleep, lifted his head and lightly pressed his lips against his handsome chin.

“…Why did you wake up so early… Sleep more.”

“It’s already past 10.”

“Already?” 

“Yeah. We must have gone to bed really late yesterday. Seeing how I’m still sleepy even after sleeping until now.”

“I checked the time before going to bed last night and it was past 3 am… You probably fell asleep around 2.”

Ji-woo, surprised that they had slept later than he thought, inhaled and opened his eyes that had been closed.

“Why did you sleep so much later than that? Couldn’t fall asleep? Ah… Did I fall asleep too quickly first? Actually, I don’t remember well how I fell asleep yesterday. I’m sorry for falling asleep first…”

Hyun-joon, surprised by Ji-woo’s unexpected apology, opened his eyes this time. He was sure he had been terribly sleepy, but his back felt chilly at Ji-woo’s single word of apology. He felt the need to make up for it somehow before getting slapped and rejected.

“Why are you sorry? I should be the one who’s sorry. I said I wouldn’t make it hard for you… At the end, I really wasn’t myself. You must be disappointed…” 

“Disappointed?”

“Uh… It’s not that I only wanted to feel good myself… At first, I really remembered? I was trying to make it less hard for you no matter what while watching how you were doing… No, well, it’s hard to make it not hard at all, so I was trying to make it less hard…”

“But that didn’t work out?”

“…Yeah. I couldn’t control myself. Even though I knew the condom broke, I just kept going…”

Ji-woo, who had been listening with his face buried in Hyun-joon’s arms and tugging at the hem of his clothes, lifted his head.

“…The condom… broke?” 

“…Yeah. So… Um… I cleaned up everything inside while you were sleeping.”

“…While I was sleeping?”

“Yeah. I did a good job until nothing came out, so you don’t have to worry.”

Ji-woo, who couldn’t understand at once, pondered Hyun-joon’s words carefully in his head again.

The condom broke, so he did something inside him… And he cleaned it all up while he was sleeping, which he couldn’t figure out what it meant.

“……”

No matter how much he thought about it, there was only one thing that came to mind. Ji-woo, his ears turning bright red with embarrassment, tried to sit up but collapsed back into Hyun-joon’s arms due to the pain felt throughout his body, especially in his waist.

“Are you okay? Does it hurt a lot? Where, your waist?”

“Everything…”

“I-I’ll give you a massage.”

Hyun-joon sat up and had Ji-woo lie face down, massaging his waist. Since Ji-woo didn’t exercise like him usually, he would probably have quite severe muscle pain. Because he used a lot of parts that he didn’t use well.

“Ah… It hurts…”

It seemed like he was applying too much force with his hands. Hyun-joon massaged Ji-woo’s waist and thighs gently with as little force as possible. Seeing Ji-woo drooping in pain, guilt began to creep in. It was even more so as he recalled making Ji-woo come one more time with his fingers while cleaning inside him as he slept.  

“…You must not want to do it with me ever again.”

“Huh?”

“I was too rough yesterday. Are you…  mad at me?”