The Birth of the War Goddess

That night as everyone is asleep I sneak off the Dormitory, I pass behind a few guards before jumping over a wall leaving the camp.

I head into the Capital City and wander around the empty streets, only a few drunk mens are left singing at the sides.

-Young Miss! Young Miss!-

-Uh?- I turn around to find a beautiful prostitute calling me over -Me?-

-Yeah you, come here one second-

-Uhm... Sure-

I walk toward her and she sigh -Young Miss, there's a Mister looking at you with quite malicious eyes...

It is not safe to go around alone at this hour, come inside please and hide a few minutes-

It's not like I haven't noticed the drunk man but I was just too caught up in my thoughts to care about him...

-Would you like some tea? It's on the house for ladies- her smile is very warm

-Uhm... You have female customers?- She seats down, looking at me with her round turquoise eyes... Her eyes are as big as her chest.

-Well yes... We are a restaurant, in some kind of way, so it happens for ladies to dine here.

Not everyone comes for our specialit...- she lays back on the chair with closed eyes

-Well not that I blame them... I do enjoy having a few moments to breath in this disgusting business-

-Oh I'm sorry...-

-Don't be my child!- she takes my hands in hers -Actually when it's womens asking for a night with us I really enjoy it!

Most of the time it's more like a lessons than the actual act of it, newly married girls often sneak here at night wanting to know how to please their men... As if there's a secret to it!

I believe that as long as you love eachother that's enough- She bites her lips looking concerned

-Forget me... What about you, Young Miss? You looked troubled out there... Something's on your mind?-

I nod -Actually yes... I'm really tired of someone in my "workplace"-

-Could I offer you some relaxation then?- I look at her with wide eyes

-N n not that kind Miss! Haha just some help from a working woman to another-

-I don't mind-

...

I find myself in a rose bath where the woman, Youya is her name, keeps combing my hair while caressing my neck and massaging my shoulders from time to time.

It almost takes me back to my old life...

Fragrant baths and relieving massages whenever I wanted... With the only difference that this time it's a lot more pleasant since I now can enjoy it sincerely.

-So... What is your job excatly Miss?-

-Call me ChangLai-

-Sure, Lai'Mei-

-Well... For how strange it may seems I work in the Royal Army...- I say rising my hand to cup a petal laying on the milky water

-Really?! That's absolutely amazing for us women! As you can see I'm not quite the example of woman freedom so... I really adore what you are doing- she caresses my cheek, bringing my head onto her naked chest

Normally it will be awkward for a woman to bathe seating between the legs of another one, but after all these days with the men it is almost reassuring to be in the company of another woman

-Lay back my child... You must be exhausted-

-I... Actually am...- I sigh finally admitting it -I kept pushing myself and didn't realize how tired I grew, not physically but...-

-Mentally? I know what you mean...- she sigh massaging my shoulders with light touches

-Mhn, I feel constantly under pressure due to my gender... I knew it wouldn't have been easy when I took this decision but I didn't not expect it to actually affect me-

-Just relax now that you can... I'm willing to help someone who achieved great things other women can only dream of-

-Why are you doing this?-

-I feel like women deserve more apprise in general for what we all bear everyday but...

To think someone actually went against what's common... Something I never managed to in my cowardliness.

I really want to help those kind of peoples-

-Thanks...- I close my eyes letting my body to fall back against hers. She almost feel like a mother in her attitude.

It's weird how easily I am trusting her... Almost as if we are long term firends... It's not like me.

Her hands begin tracing my throat and collarbones while she whisper in my ears...

-How is life in the camps?-

-It's not bad... I got some nice roomates and one is an old friend of mine too... The training is not that hard either.

I just feel stressed... I keep pushing myself over my limits and being there another guy who is at my same level the limit keep growing higher and higher... Especially because he always provokes me, hitting my most sensitive nerves-

-Is he the reason why you are tired? Or why your lip has a cut?-

-Mmh... Yeah- I nod as her hands reach my chest massaging in circular motions.

Even if she's avoiding to touch something too intimate... I've never been touched like this.

-It's very pleasing-

-Just focus on the feeling then and close you eyes...- she smiles placing a small kiss on my forehead

-How is this man then? It could be not just stress what you are feeling...? Maybe you need to let go of some other kind of tension...-

-I don't think I feel anything for him except wanting to destroy that smiling face and make him shut up, but...

I don't know about the physical aspect... I never allowed myself to think about such things being an unmarried Noble and a really focused soldier-

-Then let me teach you... Or at least help you make sense of your thoughts-

-How?-

-Just talk and I'll try to understand...-

I nod

-What's his name fist of all? We cannot talk about him as just a man-

-Dong Hu-

-Mmh... A very virile name indeed... Makes me wonder a lot.

So would you be able to describe his face and body with your own words?-

-Dark brown hairs, long till his hips... A bit shorter here on the side of the face...

Dark green eyes, as if he's judging you with that risen eyebrow of his- I clench my fist for half a second remembering his mocking expression -It's like emerald colour very shiny but still dark.

As for body well many others envy him... He's extremely sculpted and toned in every inch of his skin, he got veins all over his arms which pop out a lot when fighting.

He's fast and silent even if he's tall and muscular, I still don't know his full potential tho...

I thought he was slower than me and just a tiny bit weaker... But today it felt as if all this time he was actually holding back and hasn't yet show himself completely... He's really cleaver too but I beat him on that.

What stand out more is his smile and aura, something is not right with him...

Even the General is concerned and doesn't want him to fully train... It's as if a black shadow always follows him... As much as he follows me.

I cannot stop seeing him as a potential enemy-

-Well you do seem to have noticed a lot of him... From his body to his mind... I wouldn't say that sexual desire is involved but you are indeed troubled by his presence... You still took your time to check out his appearance tho-

-Mmh...-

-Is that the only thing troubling you?-

I shake my head and she begin pressing over my temples

-I actually have an old friend... I've been wanting to meet him since a while now, but I do not have any idea where to search for- her eyes lights up, a oddly vivid spark crossing them.

-I promised to be stronger and beat him once we met again and I believe it is now the right time...

I think to have saw him in the capital just recently.

I've been searching everywhere... But that man's features are too commons that it feels like searching for a ghost, I keep spending my free time searching for him-

-What was his name? Maybe I might have met him-

-Chao... No surname-

-Mmh... That way too little information... I'm sorry.

Was he that precious to you?-

I take a second to ponder he question, then I nod

-A casual meeting with him, as he was escaping from the North, lead me to where I am now... He gave me that little push I needed to find the strength hidden inside myself.

I need to thank him and honor of my word-

-That is indeed a person to keep near...- she whisper fondly as a light kiss fall on the side of my face.

...

After some time she pass me a silk robe to cover myself and I leave the water, She gesture me to go sit down and let her dry me up.

Something shiny catch my eyes on a table nearby and I stand up to go take that object.

-This... This is his bracelet!- I say shocked, looking at her from r my shoulder... Water dripping all over my body, making my skin peak through the with robe.

-That's actually mine.

But... If you say hes from the North it's not that strange for your friend to have it- she approaches, hovering over me in height, taking the bracelet from my hands with dark eyes.

-It is pretty common in the North to wear bracelets of this kind...

I too am a refugee... When I escaped this was the only thing I had on me-

-I am sorry... Now I have to go- I take my other clothes back and leave the brothel in a rush.

Common...

It's common...

How damn stupid of me! To seriously hung my hopes on a jewel...

Talk about intelligence and rationality.