chapter 43
43. Philance Yellow’s Activity Record 3
“……….I see, I didn’t know that.”
I was a little shaken by the unexpected fact, but I hid it and laughed innocuously.
“Fufu, I didn’t mean to hide it. I’m sorry I was late in telling you.”
Probably I’m in shock right now. Not about my brother getting married, but about the fact that he didn’t tell me, his younger sister.
I wonder why my brother kept it a secret from me. He said they hadn’t registered their marriage yet, so maybe he was going to tell me after they got officially married. I’m a little sad. Or maybe I’m not important enough to my brother to tell me about his marriage. I don’t really understand as a child, but it’s supposed to be a really big deal to get married, and yet he didn’t think it was necessary to tell me.
“No, no. I’m glad you could marry your brother.”
It’s not my fault that I’m not needed, because I’m still immature and incompetent and unworthy of love. I knew that, but it still makes me sad because I’m weak.
“You’re my brother’s wife, so you must be the happiest person in the world.”
No matter how hard I try, I’ll never be loved like a wife. Because she’s his wife. It must be the place of the person he loves most in the world. My brother wanted to put Tokiwa Uguisu first. It’s nice, I ‘m envious.
“I’m very happy. But I’m a little worried. Because Mr. Kuwabara, you like Mr. Sora, don’t you? You see, when your husband is popular, his wife gets a little insecure.”
The murky green eyes glare sharply at me. It looks like a warning gaze, but I don’t understand why. Because this person was chosen by my brother’s love, and I wasn’t. So why is she showing such hostility? To you , I’m just a pathetic loser.
“I do like him, but I’m his little sister.”
“Yes?”
It was a fact that I understood myself, but it was a little painful to say it out loud to a third party.
“No matter how much I love my brother and wish to be loved by him, I can’t allow my feelings to tie him down. I’m not charming enough to be chosen, so I can only be a good boy and continue to love my brother, and hope that my brother will love me a little bit, just a whim. I’m such a pathetic and inferior weakling.”
That’s right. I don’t have the idea or’t have the idea shouldn’t that I want to monopolize my brother, or that I want to be number one. I just want to be loved by my brother, even a little bit, and I don’t want to be hated or forgotten. That’s all I want, and I don’t want anything more.
“That’s why… it doesn’t make sense for Tokiwa Uguisu, the only one chosen by my brother, to be insecure about my existence.”
I knew that even without thinking about it again, so why is my heart so cloudy? I should just think about doing my best as a hero to be loved by my brother, that’s all I have to think about. It’s no good for me to think and act on my own, and unnecessary thoughts will make my brother hate me.
I just have to think about my brother, and only about what would make my brother happy.
“Besides, I’m my brother’s little sister, so I don’t have to worry about that. I’m no match for Tokiwa Uguisu, who is my brother’s wife…”
I stopped talking halfway through.
“W, what’s wrong?”
“Should I call you Sister-in-law Uguisu if you’re getting married?”
My brother’s wife will be my sister-in-law. It doesn’t change the fact that I’m an insignificant existence, but my brother might hate it if I’m on bad terms with Tokiwa Uguisu. At worst, he might throw me away as an unsociable little sister who can’t get along with his wife.
“W, well, a little sister is…”
Tokiwa Uguisu doesn’t answer my question, and she turns her face away, blushing with embarrassment.
“I never thought you would really think of me as just a little sister. I’m embarrassed that I misunderstood you in a strange way…”
She’s mumbling something, but I can’t hear her well.
“Eh, um. Ms. Kuwabara?”
“What?”
“That, you don’t have any romantic feelings for Mr. Sora, do you?”
Romantic?
“Don’t say such a strange thing, how can siblings have romantic feelings for each other? My brother is not such a pervert. Besides, like I said before, I know I’m not going to be chosen.”
The person Sora-nii chose is a beautiful and adult woman like the one in front of me. Even though she’s in her pajamas, she has big breasts that you can tell are there, and s*xy, tearful eyes, and a gentle, sleepy voice , and long, shiny hair tied up low, all things that I don’t have.
“Such a beautiful wife… what are you worried about?”
I feel a little sad. If there were such a beautiful person by my side, my brother would forget me in no time, and that scares me.
“Th-that’s not true. Beautiful? I’m not…”
Tokiwa Uguisu… no, Uguisu Onee-san rubbed her reddened eyes as she smiled. I never knew since I didn’t talk to her much before, but despite her mature looks, she’s actually quite timid and sometimes looks like a child. I guess that’s what charmed my brother.
My brother is definitely crazy about her. He wants to see her every day, he loves her enough to want to live with her. He doesn’t find it a bother at all to shower her with affection, in fact he’s happy to do it , and the love he gets from her is the most radiant. She holds a special value to me, like my brother. Compared to her, all I can do is listen to what he says and wait.
The amount of time that’s passed since I met my brother can’t be that different from hers, so why is there such a big gap between us? Is it because I wasn’t able to perfectly carry out my brother’s orders? Or was he not interested in me as a child from the start? Even though I’m a better hero than her, does he love her enough to choose her over me?
Why do I keep thinking such unpleasant things?
“Hey… Uguisu Onee-san, you love my brother, right?”
I realized I had asked a strange question.
“Yes, of course.”
“Really? More than anything?”
“Yes. Sora is more important to me than anything… Are you worried that your brother is being deceived by a bad woman?”
That wasn’t my intention at all. I shouldn’t worry, since she’s the one my brother chose. But why did I ask such a thing?
“Rest assured, Kuchiye-san. I will love Sora deeply and make him happy. Even for your sake as his younger sister.”
She doesn’t just love my brother, she can make him happy.
“I see. You’re amazing, Uguisu Onee-san.”
“Fufu, because I love him.”
If that’s the case, then it’s only natural that I wasn’t chosen. No, I shouldn’t think about being chosen, it’s dangerous. If he notices such a greedy thought, he’ll really throw me away this time.
I have to congratulate her, I have to be happy. She loves my brother more than me.
“…Congratulations, Uguisu Onee-san.”
“Thank you, Kuchiha-san.”
My right leg, which had healed, started to ache. Is it trying to tell me that my feelings for my brother are wavering? That’s impossible. Even if my brother forgets about me, my feelings of admiration for him will always be genuine. Even if my brother forgets about me, my feelings of admiration for him will always be genuine. if my brother only looks at his wife and forgets about me, I will continue to work hard as a hero with my brotherly love for him, until the day comes when he praises me.
As long as I am a hero, I will be my brother’s little sister.