chapter 16
16 – So now
She has changed a lot.
The appearance of her smiling under the blood moon was very different.
Her entire body was covered in her blood, and her lower fangs were now sprouting out like a beast. It was hard to say that she was human.
She must have taken the coat, but where did it go?
While showing me her voluptuous body and provocative clothes,
Her top was pulled tight, unable to handle her bust and her enlarged breasts.
Her underwear draped over the pelvis, which stands out much more than usual.
Is she deliberately trying to bring more of her own alluring side to me?
She slowly, but clumsily,
I was trying to make her gait more feminine.
The problem was that I was slowly becoming obsessed with it.
Even if she is a human, even if she is me, who loves her,
Tearing the body of a person who has been crushed right in front of your eyes, with both eyes open, one more time,
Throwing the carcass of an animal, no, useless objects or tools on the side of the road,
If a woman covered in blood approaches slowly to praise the deed,
Who wouldn’t run away screaming?
The moon was dyed in a new color never seen before,
The winter night was brighter than ever, highlighting her figure.
Surely this sight must be terrifying.
The situation was frightening me even more.
In this situation where it is natural to run away, to escape,
Her My body couldn’t be normal when I was excited about her and my heart started beating wildly.
“Niel… Niel…&”
With a hot voice,
Her desperate call to warm the cold winter air scattered white clouds in the air.
She screams that she wants to hold her right now,
Contrary to my body screaming at her that I will rip off her clothes wildly and covet her as she wishes,
As if representing my feelings of falling apart due to her changed appearance and broken heart,
It wasn’t long before the cloud flew high in the sky and became cloudy.
Soon after, they scattered and disappeared.
“Please, Niel… Look at me… Look at me, the one monster that loves you.”
Now that she doesn’t even recognize herself as a human anymore,
There is no inspiration after committing a terrible thing –
No, this idea is wrong.
For her, this is her cruelty, and it must be something she is having a hard time dealing with.
Seeing that outstretched hand continues to tremble unstoppably,
When I see her, drenched in her blood, thinking of coming to me, with that dark red stain on her now that I don’t know if she’s hardened or frozen,
It was right that at least her feelings from this work are pushing her to her limits.
However,
All her emotions, senses, and spirit are sold to please me, so I try to ignore them.
I don’t know how she feels –
“I, I, Niel, now I know. Now I know for sure? I only need you. Everything was perfect with you from the beginning. Alas, now I know that!”
Ppodeuk.
And she took a step closer to me.
“If I had been by your side, spent time by your side, lived by your side and lived with you, if I had expected a comfortable and leisurely life like you said from the beginning, all of this might have been just a dream overnight.”
Tak.
And her arm went down.
“…Hah, wait a minute… Tears… Uhhh…”
Wiping away her tears, she took a step closer, paying attention to her sharpened fingernails.
Now, our distance is such that if someone leans in even slightly, they will be embraced.
If you try to escape any longer, you will be caught by force.
It was literally right in front of her nose.
And I found out.
It’s not just her body and her eyes that have changed.
She must have been about the same height as me.
She was a little taller, to the point where I could feel it now.
Is this possible?
Being a vampire, to such an extent that every part of her is completely changed and twisted?
Does it make sense that every part of the body changes so drastically?
Her complicated hair is so hot that not even the cold wind can cool it.
She ended up breaking my will to keep her focus.
I reached out my hand and caught her tilting head at the sharp, stiff sensation of driving an awl into the center of her head.
She cupped my chin with both hands,
Like cherishing an expensive pottery, a valuable bowl of delicious food, or a fruit basket to bring home,
He lightly supported my face and made eye contact.
“Look at me, look at me, Niel. Put me in her lovely eyes…”
Her emotions were buried in every word.
Cool and concise,
In a way, she was blunt.
Have you overturned and replaced everything to please me?
Her body trembled in surprise at the sound of her voice, which was so soft and soggy that I could believe that she was whispering right next to my ear.
Tickling the pinna of the ear, feeling as if a marble were spinning and falling into the center…
“Huh…!”
It’s impossible, and there’s no way you’ll ever feel it,
On a cold day, the feeling of the warm wind sweeping through the body once and for all.
Slowly, intensely, persistently,
I felt her body lean towards her.
The spirit tells my body to flee immediately,
I was screaming to get away from that thing that had torn a person apart in a funny way,
The feeling of her slowly embracing me and pulling me into her arms as if sucking me in…
Instinct seized my spirit as it was and threw me into the far abyss.
Obviously, the instinct to react first when one feels a threat to one’s life,
She was at a loss for words in a situation where her spirit, which had tried to protect her even at the risk of her life, turned into the exact opposite of her.
Unlike my stunned mind, my body slowly traced her curves, the various curves of her shallow muscles,
As I fell into her fire-like body that casually endured the chill of the harsh winter,
She was slowly falling for her.
“Niel… Niel…& My only Niel, my precious Niel…”
By the time she was in her third year, she hadn’t done as much as she did last year, perhaps because she got tired of her affection expressions that she gave and received countless times.
Now she was holding me in her arms and shedding tears.
“I will never let you fall from my arms again. Even if you hate it, I will hold on to you. I will never, never let you escape…”
Thump, thump, thump, thump, thump.
Her warmth, scent,
In that bosom, where a bit of sharp bloody salt is mixed, giving a hazy feeling,
A vibration that made her skin quiver ran into my head.
“I got so much love from you, I couldn’t even pay my nails back. I didn’t even think about repaying it.
I took you for granted. I believed that the favor you did was natural.
Now… I’ve become something I couldn’t even take for granted.
And only then did I know.
It’s not until I become this cursed figure.
Maybe… The heavens will punish me for not being polite.”
Her, and her face dug into her deep goal.
Instinct entrusts itself to the precipice of pleasure in that skin that is soft but has elasticity within it.
Looking at my spirit, I smiled.
Even though I resented her for completely throwing her touch into my mind, saying ‘Isn’t it much better?’
Her instinct was to just laugh and stop trying to tell her something of hers somehow.
I blocked her mouth as she tried to say it over and over again,
Or, barely tightening her tongue, loosening the muscles in her jaw, making it burrow into her bosom.
The more she did, the more she smiled with tears in her eyes and brushed my hair.
“Ah, Niel, are you happy…? A changed country, no, maybe a changed country makes you happy?”
No, I loved you from the beginning,
I was able to love you even if you didn’t change like this,
…Of course, I’d hate you if you cheated on that motherf*cker,
I was happy at the moment I confessed that I had a heart that loved me from the beginning.
I wanted to say that, but-
“Then I will change more. Please forget me, who was a human being. Will you erase me from your memories of those days when I only hurt you…?”
She held me dearly, holding her nose to the top of her head and swallowing her breath lightly,
Be quiet. She laid down her heart on me, heavily.
“From now on, I will live as your own monster, feeding only on your love, treating you as if it were my life.
I won’t be separated from you, who always enjoyed my time with me, so that you won’t be lonely.
So as not to lose the warmth we felt when we were together, so that the times we spent together were always filled with laughter… Only your sweet screams…
“Ehh?!”
She simply put one of her legs between mine,
My body jumped up at the passing touch.
Legs stand straight, body straight,
It wriggled as if a freshly caught fish would not leave its body still for a moment when it came ashore.
But she wasn’t going to miss it.
As if to prove her words that she would never let go of me now,
“Sobbing…!”
As if he couldn’t tolerate the momentary gap, he hugged me even more strongly –
“It’s cold, isn’t it? Shall we go in…? Let’s go in and talk a little more.”
With a hot tongue in my ears,
A mass of mucous membranes and muscles soaked in saliva,
It was wrapped softly and sucked in the bitter cold of winter.
Instinct finally looked away from waving at me with a blissful smile, desperately wringing out the last bit of strength to put mine in her eyes.
And then I realized.
Tell her that I can’t win.
Before she changed, she thought that she could never win against her in terms of strength.
It seemed that she had lost even with her will.
Her eyes only focused on me.
The flame that had been burning with ambition had gone out, and instead something bloody was pounding in its place.
Thump, thump, thump, thump, thump…
Looking at me, something that shakes more violently.