chapter 17
17 – Don’t Refuse
Akinson, his torn body was thrown out without proper rest.
Even though I was fighting with her over her, and I definitely had a bad feeling about her slut – I felt sorry for her.
Of course, I couldn’t say that I didn’t want him to die in a guesthouse one day or get seriously injured, but
I couldn’t have imagined such a disastrous ending.
I still think of his face in pain.
Maybe I won’t forget it until I die.
The feeling of being torn limbs while still alive,
I hoped that the day would never come in my life to know that pain.
“This… This… Let go… Elena…”
I had to share her story with her about this work of hers.
In this situation, I had to be extremely cool.
Now was the chance even though his instincts had faded.
Of course, it was true that the current situation in which she kept pushing that beautiful figure on me was putting me in so much trouble.
And it was also true that he kept breaking my will.
But this thing definitely had to be addressed.
I was angry, but the guy’s family couldn’t be ignored.
So was his status.
“No, no, no, never let go, Niel, never, now I won’t let go even if you tell me to let go.”
But she had no intention of listening to me at all.
For her, her number one priority was taking my body.
To reconnect with me and to reaffirm our love for each other.
That alone was filling her head.
Her words tremble slightly at the end.
Half-laughing, half-mad, her condition was not at all normal.
Like a stone tower that will collapse completely if shaken even now,
I was staggering.
“By the way, Niel, why are you saying that? Why are you saying such harsh things? Huh…?”
Wait, that’s dangerous.
My body was getting tighter.
The feeling of her soft skin becoming stiff and hard like a stone was never pleasant.
He grabbed my shoulder and squeezed it in his hand, as if trying to rip it off.
Her hands touching her ribs seemed like they would tear my heart out at any second.
In agony and terror, I let out a long breath and struggled.
“Hey, wait a minute – “
The stones seemed to weigh me down.
It took a while for me to be held in your soft arms, as if I was being stamped out,
And that, too, was lifted up in the air –
Caught between her arms, the pitiful lifeline was in danger of being ripped off too easily.
The fact that she has completely changed,
The fact that I was so small compared to her vampire, she was deeply engraved in her mind.
We will never go back to the way we used to be.
I suddenly had that thought.
And if you spit out that thought, you probably won’t survive.
Your life is still being threatened…!
“Why, why? Niel, why? Why do I have to let you go? We’re closer than ever. Over the past year, I’ve treated you so coldly, so far away, so callous that I’m not your lover. About,
In order to repay the overflowing love I received from you,
In order to pay for the wounds I gave you,
By the way, but why are you pushing me away? You hate me? Do you hate me I, I, no, no, no,
Niel, you can’t do that. You love me, don’t you Niel, you’re still in love with me, right? Niel, Niel, answer me, please, Niel, please…!”
“Ahhhhh…”
I feel like my eyes will be pulled out from the pressure any moment.
Now I’m out of breath.
As if my instincts had finally come to their senses, I began to allow myself to give strength to my body.
But it was too late.
I was already caught by her, her body slowly crumbling,
I couldn’t see any way out of this situation.
I was just trying to ask you to let me go, to release me from your arms for a while,
She wasn’t normal. I was out of my mind.
Since her change, she has no idea how the hell she has changed…
One thing that was clear was the fact that he hadn’t completely changed.
Stained with madness and blood, I became a monster that only wanted me.
“No, you love me.
There’s no way I wouldn’t love you. Otherwise it wouldn’t have saved my life.
You can’t share your blood with me and hold me in my arms right now.
Yes, you love me. Because you love me, you’re staying by my side like this, right?
Niel, I like you, I love you like that…”
She couldn’t help but be astonished at the way she drew her own conclusions.
Not paying attention to my gasping for breath,
Just staring blankly at my teary eyes with those cloudy eyes,
Licking her lips glistening with her saliva with her bright red tongue…
“Niel, don’t dodge.”
At that moment, her arms gave way.
Kwadang, I sprawled on the floor and took a deep breath, unable to even think of moving my body.
I didn’t know the air could be so sweet.
I never thought I would be so grateful to be able to breathe.
And I didn’t want to know all this because of her.
But I was in a position to know more.
“Keuhuhhh… Keuhh, haa – uh huh?!?!”
Have you ever seen wild beasts pounce on their prey?
It literally leaps up, covering its prey with its whole body and crushing it.
With all its power and weight, it presses its prey to the ground with all its might and waits for its strength to wear off.
Then wait until you stop breathing by biting your neck or clamping it with your teeth.
I was attacked by her.
The only difference between her and the beast is that she attacked me not to kill me, but to covet me.
Everything else was no different from a beast.
She climbed up with her weight intact on her waist so that I, the prey, could not move.
Pleasant softness and pressure went up on the boat.
…Why did I like her coercive figure so much?
I didn’t want this.
I came to like her because I wished for her active love,
This kind of thing – This kind of thing is too reckless.
“Chung, chuup… Yeah…!”
Fluffy and warm, like mashed warm potatoes mixed with cream – like freshly made mashed potatoes on your lips,
Otherwise, it felt as if I had layered my lips with a cream that was somewhat thicker in texture.
The problem is, it must have been a more unpleasant feeling, as if it had been slapped against my lips.
Even she didn’t want to stop by simply coveting her lips.
Her tongue ran through my tightly closed teeth, trying to find a gap somehow.
I was trying to somehow lift or squeeze the small spaces between the even teeth –
Within a moment, she dangled a few strands of her silvery thread and warned me with her red eyes.
“Mouth, open, quick.”
“That, that’s right – heh… Heh… Heh…”
Alas.
She opened her mouth to answer her words, and the moment she opened her teeth, the game was over.
Her tongue invaded without permission, one by one, touching the sensitive parts of me that she already knew.
The more I did, the more I thought of shady desires and the simple thought of wanting to get more pleasure than this.
My love with her is always one step higher than that.
In her mind, she wanted to love in the form of building memories that would remain in her heart…
I couldn’t help but be disappointed to see that she just covets me like an animal and tries to get pleasure from me.
Always aligned, and when she led, I followed.
But always at the beginning when each other wanted,
Eye contact, hand touch, what started as a hug is a kiss,
A kiss with a deep kiss, and that deep kiss is the kind of love that sticks to each other’s skin.
But now… I didn’t like it.
I hated that she approached me like this without listening to what she was trying to say.
To be honest, I was embarrassed.
How I waited for her, what I thought of her, how I continued my relationship with her,
In the third year, did you really think that I would have forgotten the image of her who openly ignored me and tried to leave –
If you approached me gently, if you approached me kindly,
If you showed a sincere acknowledgment of your mistakes,
I was in a relationship like this too.
A man was mercilessly killed in front of my eyes,
If you say you did it because you love me, you say you can’t do it without me, there’s no way you’ll hear that kind of thing, right?
I wanted to ask that question.
So I deliberately didn’t move my tongue.
No matter how much she wriggles her tongue to stimulate my tongue, to guide my movements,
Even if you kindly put it under my tongue, lift it up, and look at it,
I didn’t do anything.
Without even passing her own saliva she pushed down her throat,
Just like her wooden stone, she lay still without even holding her arm properly.
What a wrong choice that was,
How much it stimulated her,
How much you have contributed to the worsening of this situation,
I only found out after I had done the work.
First of all, she was unaware that even her saliva had changed.
“This, hehehe moose…N…”
My mouth was tingling. I was getting dazed.
My senses were numb, and I was getting choked up.
After inadvertently swallowing it, the discomfort I had felt before was slowly easing.
Her hatred for her was sinking so awkwardly.
“…Don’t push, don’t reject, don’t hate, don’t hate, Niel.
Yeah, I knew at least that you wouldn’t love me this much…! Of course! Because a monster like this doesn’t suit you…
But…”
Kwaduk, my throat was bitten in an instant.
But there was no pain.
I didn’t feel anything when my skin was pierced and her teeth were driven into my neck.
And again, the sticky liquid started to flow down my throat.
“Whoa… Wait… Whoa?!”
While wriggling, I poured something into my body, which was already full of blood.
Without even sucking blood, I drove my teeth deep into my body just to get the poison into me.
And then her mouth fell,
“…I’m sorry. I’m sorry for being such a woman. But I can’t help it.
I already made up my mind.
If I’m not loved by you, I’ll force you to love me.
Now that I’ve become a monster, I’ll use the monster’s method.
Thoroughly, I will make you my man.”
My heart starts beating.
Tears rush out at the hot, strange touch.
Your lower body heats up, and you begin to feel a pleasant weight.
But this is not the kind of love I was looking for.