Suspiciously Close Siblings (Going Up)

After calming down for a while, a deep sense of guilt came over me.

⋯I had an accident.

I thought it would be like this

Really crashed

Her mother came back and she had dinner with them.

She couldn't raise her head.

It felt completely different from what I had vaguely imagined in my head.

Betrayed.

To the point where I can't even make excuses.

"⋯Son. Stomach ache? Your expression is not very cool."

"Yes? No, no. My body is a little sore…"

"Do some exercise. If you do too much, you will hurt yourself."

"⋯Yes."

My mother's nagging voice as usual,

I couldn't quite hear it with my mind.

***

The last Monday of October has arrived.

Sleep⋯ Still, I slept well.

I was tired both physically and mentally, so he said he came well.

Eat breakfast as usual

Seeing her mother off to work,

I got into the car with Winter.

By now, the weather had become very chilly.

To the point where it drops below 10 degrees in the morning.

"⋯."

"⋯."

⋯ This subtle air.

Well, what should I say?

I don't know.

"⋯Winter."

"Oh, huh? Yeah…"

"That… Yesterday was…, Um… It's not like I went crazy all of a sudden…"

"Yes."

"So, anyway."

"Yes."

I'm going to leave because I'm frustrated because I'm talking only with words that don't have any meaning.

⋯Originally, I used to talk a lot about fancy things,

It's hard to be weird these days.

"That, older brother…"

"Uh, uh."

"⋯That, if I do that⋯ do you feel that way?"

"⋯Do I really have to say that?"

"It's just… It's so different from usual…"

"⋯."

"Because I was blindfolded… I couldn't see… I don't know…"

"Winter."

"Yes."

"⋯Let's not talk about this."

It feels like playing with the triangle of conscience embedded in my chest like a fidget spinner.

⋯Even in this situation, I hate myself for looking sideways at my thighs.

But… I can't help it.

It's instinct.

If I could have stopped with reason, I wouldn't have done that yesterday.

⋯Looking at her so openly that her eyes were caught.

"⋯Brother?"

"Oh, winter. I have a question… Isn't that cold?"

"Ah, this. Stockings are so warm. If it's cold, you can wear gym clothes. It is warm during the day."

"⋯."

I thought I made a good excuse,

Gyeeryi picked up her black stockings with two fingers and stretched them slightly before releasing them.

It's not even a middle school student who opened his eyes to sex.

My head hurts, really.

***

Still, I haven't had another accident in the past few days.

⋯I couldn't even masturbate.

What should I do, I just can't.

Should I say it feels like my heart is tightening?

Every time I try to do it, I think of my family.

I realized that there is a huge difference between simply harboring feelings and actually sharing them.

A mother's voice,

My cousin's words keep ringing in my ears.

Since I am an elder, I should have done better on my own.

But, really.

I was thinking about trying something.

The conclusion was just that.

⋯ Apart from asking if you can handle it.

Winter did not come to my room, perhaps because the mock exam was right around the corner.

I was still ashamed when I touched my body, but… Well. Me too

I don't know what the siblings are doing.

Still, it didn't bother me that much when it was just the two of us.

If there's something⋯ a third person, no one will really see eye to eye.

⋯It seems that you have already eaten.

On the morning of the mock exam in October, Gye-gyeol was taking a deep breath in the passenger seat.

⋯ I hope it's okay.

Like last time, then it's a really big deal.

"⋯Are you okay?"

"⋯Yes. I'm just a little nervous."

"You don't look very good."

"It's no longer strange to have a good expression on test day."

"⋯That's right."

His words seemed calm, but his hands were still slightly shaking.

⋯Ah.

Shy and sleep

When you have to do it

After all, there are only two

"⋯Brother?"

"⋯My hands are cold."

"⋯Oppa's hands are warmer."

"Oh, little. Can't we just be quiet?"

"Yes."

My ears felt hot when I saw Gye-ryeol quietly holding her hand while giggling.

⋯ Oh, really.

Pretend you don't know and move on. Something like this.

***

After driving with one hand, why did my heart beat fast?

While he was already warmed up, he told me to go back home and just exercise enough to not think about anything else.

Surprisingly, as I worked hard to break my body, my mind became sober.

After all, when you have a headache, you have to torture your body so that the pain doesn't come to mind.

After sweat poured out like rain and soaked in the bathtub, it felt like my brain was empty.

Enjoying the coziness of lukewarm hot water, I took a long time to heal.

After wiping my body, I came out and lay down on the sofa for a while to cool off. It was time for the exam to end before I knew it.

Ignoring the screaming muscles, I said goodbye to my mother who had just returned and headed to school to pick up Winter.

As I waited blankly for Winter in the car, the phone rang.

"Oh, winter."

"Oh, brother."

"Huh. Why."

"Well, I have something to do today. I think I'll be about half an hour late."

"Okay?"

"Are you here already?"

"Uh."

"⋯Sorry, I should have called earlier."

"No, I didn't have anything to do."

"I'll finish it soon, sorry."

"⋯Okay. Take care of yourself."

"Huh."

"Are you fine?"

"Are you okay. I'm fine today I'll hang up."

When I received a call from her younger brother who said that she would be a little late, the tension was relieved.

Well… And wherever you go.

She was fiddling with her cell phone for a while, but this time a text message came.

-Son

-Yes

-School?

-Yes

-When you come, buy some butane gas.

-Yes?

-I was going to grill meat today, but I forgot.

-Yes

-When are you coming?

-I think winter is going to be a bit late.

-Can you come before dinner?

-Yes

-Yes, don't make an accident and come in carefully.

⋯Meat.

Since I worked out, I need to supplement with protein.

Suddenly my mouth watered.

Thanks to that, I felt hungry.

No matter how much, I didn't want to satisfy my hunger with anything other than meat.

I closed my eyes and fell asleep for a while.

***

"⋯Ooh."

"⋯Mmmm."

"⋯ Whoa."

"⋯Winter?"

"⋯Yes."

I tossed and turned and woke up because my ear hole tickled.

When I checked the clock, only 30 minutes had passed.

Suddenly, it is dark outside.

It's definitely autumn.

It's also winter.

"What are you doing."

"Thievery."

"⋯What?"

"Brother."

"Huh."

"Sleeping is good, but what if you sleep without locking the door?"

"⋯Ah, was it?"

"It could be dangerous."

"⋯Sure."

I didn't think it was bothersome to see Gye-gyeol staring at me and nagging me.

⋯It's all good, but can't you touch your ears?

It is harmful in many ways.

"Sorry I'm late."

"What have you been doing?"

"I came to check the answers with my friends."

"⋯Yes."

As she spoke, she stretched her body and made a groaning sound.

⋯.

"⋯Are you okay?"

"I'm fine. ⋯It's a little bit exciting, but."

"⋯Well, you don't feel like vomiting or anything like that?"

"Are you okay. I am not a child."

"You are a child in my eyes."

"⋯Really?"

"No. Just kidding."

Seeing Winter with a slight smile made me feel at ease.

Well… I guess it's okay to accept a joke.

I was really surprised this time.

How surprised would you have been to go into the house with your hands held tight?

"⋯Are you tired?"

"⋯Yes, a little. Somehow… I was nervous, and some were focused."

"Do you want to fold the sheets and sleep?"

"⋯Can I?"

"Can't you do that much to a student taking the exam?"

"⋯Then I will. Sorry."

"I want to hear you say thank you rather than sorry."

"Thank you-. ⋯Thank you?"

"Yes, thank you."

It was a thank you that I received as if I was bowing down, but I smiled naturally.

⋯ Ha.

At times like this, he looks like a real kid.

It's hard.

My head is complicated.

After flipping the sheet, I lay down halfway, and Gye-gyeolyi closed her eyes before I knew it.

He slept without a seatbelt, so I pulled him in instead.

⋯ Whoa.

My legs trembled.

On the way home, I glanced sideways.

I always feel

The sleeping face is really cute.

⋯I didn't touch it.

***

I arrived at the parking lot and parked the car.

I looked to the side, but it seems that he is still soundly asleep.

I slightly shook her shoulders to wake her up, and she opened her eyes slightly.

"Winter."

"Yes."

"It's all here."

"Yes."

"Go up and wait. I have to go to the convenience store to buy butane gas."

"⋯Why?"

"Today, Mom is eating meat."

"⋯I'll sleep a little longer, so I'll go up with you."

"⋯Yes."

I left the winter with my eyes closed again and got out of the car.

I walked to the convenience store and bought some butane gas and a few cans of beer.

What mom likes.

As I was looking around to see if there was something to buy together, there was something that caught my eye.

⋯ Uh.

Can I buy this

⋯ Isn't it?

Can I stand it if I buy it?

Conversely, when you can't stand it,

What if there isn't?

No, no, I will never do it until the exam.

However, I am not saying that you will finish the exam.

⋯I was seriously thinking about it.

After running the simulation dozens of times,

Put in the shopping cart

⋯You can't throw away a few more T-shirts.

If you bury it on a bed or a blanket after being picky… It could be a real big deal.

I put two boxes of the ones that looked the most wholesome.

I went back to the parking lot with a plastic bag.

I saw the shape of Kyeol-gyeol sleeping with the interior light turned off.

It was dark, so I couldn't see it well.

I opened the driver's door and went in.

I tried to wake up Winter,

"⋯."

With a black mask covering your eyes,

Looking at Winter who is sleeping peacefully,

Something snapped in her head.