Chapter 20: Failure
It is said that an animal that has eaten a human even once perceives the human as a prey for the rest of its life.
Animals that have tasted humans are treated as beasts, not animals, and are not protected by the law and are killed.
⋯It's like telling my story.
Winter after that day,
I couldn't see him as a younger brother.
"⋯."
"⋯."
Two weeks have passed since then.
After finishing the meal, I looked at the winter sitting at the table.
I swallowed once.
⋯ It's not because I'm hungry.
The relationship between the siblings also became quite awkward.
Sometimes touch,
If your body collides,
Both of them are surprised to the point of hurting Sauce.
How could I not tell my mother
I already knew it was too late to turn back.
I don't know how many times I masturbated after that.
The first time was difficult, the second time was very easy.
Almost two months in the army,
One more month after being discharged,
I couldn't stand it when the desire that had been piled up for so long erupted in an instant.
I refrained from doing it for the past few days because I thought my body and brain would be damaged.
To be honest,
The two of us can't be at home anymore.
I think I'll buy it.
Winter tries to pretend nothing happened,
Stimulates my appetite
"Winter."
"Why, why… Brother."
And that's it.
If you pretend not to know
Do not avert your eyes.
It's all obvious.
Don't even blush
Don't stutter.
"I'm leaving for a minute."
"⋯Where are you going?"
"I will go anywhere."
I ran out of the house like running away.
⋯Where should I go?
***
I stopped by the bookstore today, wondering if I could calm down if I smelled the paper.
⋯It was a stupid idea.
It didn't calm down at all, probably because winter was similar to the smell of the room.
Driving me crazy.
Do you think you'll be fine if you read the book?
I took out any book that caught my eye and read it.
I realized after reading about half of it.
⋯ This is actually obscenity, fuck.
What do you do with a bestseller, the expression is lewd.
⋯Is it a bestseller because it is lewd?
I put it back on the bookshelf.
I will turn
Because I don't know what to do.
Unstable.
I wonder how to do it
I put my hand on my forehead to cool my head.
I tilted my head back and looked around and saw some very familiar faces.
⋯Why are they?
As they were glaring at each other, as if they noticed their gaze, they whispered among themselves for a while and then walked this way.
"Uh, hello Autumn?"
"⋯Hello."
One is a college classmate I briefly ran into at a cafe the other day.
One is a short little winter friend,
⋯ What kind of contact do you have?
"What are you doing here?"
"My house is originally from this side, so I'm going on a date with my younger sister who is also a family member."
"⋯Are you two sisters?"
"Uh, but… Do you know my sister?"
Winter, who had been hiding behind his siblings and sticking out his head, was surprised when I met his gaze.
⋯That's because Gye-gyeol said something else.
"Uh… I've seen her a few times because she's my sister's friend."
"Oh, is it winter?"
"How do you know my brother?"
"I heard it many times from her brother. I have a very nice friend. I saw her face once."
"…Is that so?"
"I did it because the name was similar."
The real world seems so small.
Of course, since we live in similar places, we must go to similar schools.
It's not strange that an older sister and a younger sister go to the same high school.
Right now, me and Winter are either male or female, but it's different. Actually, it's the same place.
"Oh, I called. Wait for a sec."
"Uh, yes."
"⋯."
Suddenly, he grabbed her cell phone and moved away slightly to answer the call quietly.
Ji, leaving only her brother behind.
⋯ Winter's friend's name was Shin Nara.
But what was the name of the motive?
"⋯That, Sinnara, right? I heard from Winter."
"Ah yes."
"⋯What is your sister's name?"
"⋯ Yes?"
"Forgot your name."
"⋯Heaven. God sky."
"Oh yeah. Thank you."
Her eyes were looking at something dangerous until just now, but she looked at me for a moment with a pathetic expression.
⋯ No, you may not know.
I'm not friendly.
"Oh, sorry. Call your friend."
"No, there is nothing to be sorry about."
"If you have time, would you like to go to a cafe with us?"
"⋯I have an appointment."
"Ah… That's right. You had a girlfriend."
"⋯ Yes?"
I was about to end the conversation with my motive who finished the call, but suddenly the winter friend was surprised and expressed a question.
"⋯Did your brother have a girlfriend?"
"⋯Uh, she's not my girlfriend yet."
"⋯Really?"
"Don't lie, I saw you on a date the other day."
"Just because you're dating doesn't mean you're going out with everyone."
"Oh, how does that feel?"
"⋯."
"Anyway, okay. We'll go."
As if he knew something, he smiled and patted her on the shoulder, telling her to cheer up, then disappeared with her brother.
At the end, my friend, Winter, looked at me with a very complex and subtle expression.
I am anxious because I have no idea what kind of strange imagination I am imagining.
⋯ Ha.
Talking to people I'm not very close to makes me a bit tired because my nerves are focused.
Thanks to that, my thoughts were blown away a bit.
***
I returned home feeling somewhat at ease.
She took a deep breath and opened the front door, but no one was there.
I went into my room just in case, but fortunately it was empty.
⋯ Still, I have to say that I'm back.
Knocking on the next door, Winter answered the phone and opened the door.
"I'm back."
"⋯."
He looked at me for a moment, then nodded and closed the door again.
⋯ After.
I went into the bathroom, took off my clothes, and washed myself with water.
I'm glad I didn't feel weird about it yet.
I tried to change into new clothes, but when I tried to put on the clothes I put in the towel box, there were only two T-shirts instead of pants.
I had no choice but to go back to my room wearing only my top and panties.
"⋯."
"⋯Why, again."
Winter was lying on my bed.
In the same posture as that day,
Wearing the same clothes
Same,
With an eyepatch on.
The curtains were closed, so it was still dark in the room even though it was afternoon.
But the sunlight that breaks through
Lips,
Chest,
Thighs
It was shining brightly.
"⋯Winter."
"⋯."
I was mistaken to think I had calmed down.
Just forgot
Because I was out of sight for a moment.
Still,
It wasn't that he was drunk, but he was holding on to the last string of rationality.
His gaze was fixed on his bare thighs.
"If there is something you want to say, say it."
"⋯."
"Even if it was then, why today?"
"⋯."
"⋯Kim Winter."
I took off my blindfold because I wanted to at least talk.
I honestly don't know if I'll be able to do that because I'm still determined.
If it was that easy, I wouldn't even worry about it.
Still, in case you don't know
Emotions are so great,
If you can't contain yourself,
Because you might make a mistake.
So let's talk about it, each other.
"⋯."
"Open your eyes."
"⋯."
"Look into my eyes."
"⋯."
I sat down next to her head and looked straight down at Winter.
I want to know why
At least until the end of the exam, I told you to keep your distance.
"⋯Winter."
"⋯Brother."
After calling several times, he finally answered.
Eyes still closed though.
"⋯Did you go to the bookstore today?"
"Huh."
"⋯A friend, call me. He said he saw you."
"I ran into you for a while."
"⋯That, I heard."
"What."
"⋯Girlfriend, there is something similar."
"⋯."
Ah,
What can I do?
It was fortunate that Winter had his eyes closed.
I think what you would have said if you were caught laughing.
As if slightly pouting, as if complaining,
Winter is jealous of me,
So cute,
It was hot
"For that?"
"My friend's older sister… Has seen it before."
"⋯So?"
"⋯I go out often these days⋯."
"That's it, why are you doing this in my room?"
"⋯I don't know."
"Then, it's like that today, but why was it like that back then?"
"That's… I'm curious."
"What."
"⋯I wondered what he would do if he pretended to be asleep…"
"⋯That's not pretending to sleep."
⋯ It's openly tempting.
I couldn't stand it in the end.
"I-I didn't know you would do that… I thought I was just kidding…"
"Then why are you doing this now? Knowing that it won't end as a joke."
"⋯."
I bit her mouth tight.
⋯.
I also closed my mouth and swallowed.
"⋯Anyway, is it really⋯?"
"Like what."
"There's something like a girlfriend…"
"It's true."
"What?"
"It's right in front of you."
"⋯?"
He didn't seem to understand, so I lay down next to him and lightly hugged his back.
⋯ Ha.
I don't know now
Social taboo,
Ethics,
Morality,
What the fuck, I'm not that nice of a person.
I don't know anymore.
Whatever.
No one ever makes mistakes in life.
"That's what you're talking about."
"What?"
"You're talking about what I saw the other day on a date with you."
"Ah…"
"I'm sorry, I have no one to date other than you."
"⋯."
"I will continue to do so."
"⋯Really?"
"Then it must be fake."
"⋯Brother."
"Huh."
"⋯Put an eyepatch on me."
⋯Really.
Why is this?
Why is she my sister
Why so,
Do you know the words that drive me crazy?
Amazing.
That much,
Want to have.
He turned her arm around and put on the blindfold she had removed earlier.
He reached out his hand and gently touched her body.
See first.
And lips,
A little further down the neck,
Straight through the collarbone,
Chest.
Even though I touched it on clothes,
Much more than I ever imagined,
Soft,
It was delicious.
"⋯Heh⋯⋯."
But I couldn't be satisfied with that alone.
Lower your hands a little more,
Tucked into clothes
I touched my stomach for a moment.
Despite being skinny, I felt that there was flesh in my lower stomach.
When I pressed it hard, I let out a slight moan as if it hurt.
⋯ Whoa.
She crawled up her skin with a little more full body tightness.
The bra was touched.
Really,
I wanted to take it off too much.
⋯I don't know how to peel it off.
I touched the back, but it doesn't seem to have a hook.
Sports branga?
It's a bit loose material for that kind of thing.
I thought about putting my hand inside, but gave up.
I want to leave it for later pleasure.
Slowly from the side chest,
Kneaded as if to gather.
"Ha…"
Of course, he also broke his neck.
Even so, it doesn't leave a mark.
As long as you don't suck too hard, you'll be fine.
He pinched his nose and inhaled deeply.
He then lightly breathed into his ear.
Even though I hugged you tightly,
My body trembled.
I felt like I was going crazy as I was rubbing my breasts with both hands.
Right now, I'm wearing a single drose on my lower body.
It's so big that it explodes, and the tip of it sticks out through your panties.
He pressed his pubic bone against her buttocks and tightened his thighs.
Solved.
Pulled again
The waist moved naturally.
Pleasure does not come only from physical stimuli,
I realized it painfully.
Shallow moaning and heavy breathing filled the room.
Each other's clothes were wet to the point of being damp.
It's not even summer.
So I lifted it up a bit.
Just enough to see the waist.
He removed one of the hands that had been tasting his breasts and touched his side.
My body trembled again.
He hugged her tighter so he wouldn't tremble and gently stroked her waist.
This time, instead, my vocal cords trembled.
Kyeollyi turned over and got on top of him.
When I put my hand under my bra, I could directly touch the soft skin.
As if looking for something
Moving her palms around, the bumps kept getting stuck.
Sweat was pouring out every time.
Lick and spread evenly.
To prevent it from escaping, I crushed it harder.
⋯Really.
It really seemed to cross the line.
But,
What?
Nothing.
No matter how much I don't think about it, my friends are doing this,
There are things you can be responsible for and there are things you can't.
Instead,
Biting her neck,
Teasing the chest,
Putting the lower half of the body on the verge of exploding,
I put my weight on it and pressed it down like crazy.
So much that the bed creaked.
I can't stop with my will,
At the end of the shaking of the waist,
⋯ Ha ha.
Whoa.
Huh Eok.
He exhaled heavily.
Committed
Even after committing it, he continued to rub it.
After enjoying the feeling of ejaculation several times, I relaxed as it was.
⋯Because I had an erection to the limit and the tip protruded out of my panties,
It's all buried inside my t-shirt.
⋯ Still, it's better than doing it on the back.
It kept clinging to me, so my stomach was damp.
I should throw away my clothes
"⋯Brother."
"Winter."
"⋯ I'm choking."
"Ah… Yes. Listen to your back."
"Yes."
He bent down slightly and removed the hand that was still touching his chest.
And winter came down from above.
⋯I'm going crazy, I keep touching it, but it's already a pity that it falls off.
"⋯That's right."
"Ah, yes."
He sat down and looked at me, pointed to the blindfold, and took it off.
⋯Isn't it okay if you take off the eye patch yourself?
I peeled it off cleanly though.
"⋯That, brother. ⋯No."
"What."
"⋯I don't think so. Until the exam."
"⋯?"
"If this is weird… I think I won't be able to concentrate at all…".
"⋯Uh."
"⋯Can you put up with it for a month?"
"No."
"Uh?"
"I don't think I can stand it."
"⋯That, you can't do that."
"You already did something wrong."
"⋯Really, ⋯no."
"Really?"
I rolled my eyes here and there and embraced Winter, who was avoiding my gaze.
Then he continued to press his lips against her collarbone.
⋯Ah,
My brain seems to have burned out.
Normal thinking is impossible.
It's not even a month until the exam.
I can't stand it for a month and a half.
"⋯That, sometimes⋯ will come like this. No more than this."
"⋯Okay."
After freeing the answering winter with a blushing face, he stroked it.
Fortunately, it only got on each other's clothes, so it was okay not to clean the bed separately.
Winter ran away saying he would wash, so I went into the master bedroom bathroom and washed myself.
Of course, I threw away the shorts and t-shirts I was wearing.
⋯Haa, CEE haircut.
Really horny
What to do
In the end, while taking a shower, I soothed my sexual desire once more.