Suspiciously Close Siblings (Going Up)

At that moment, several thoughts came to mind.

Various scenarios.

What kind of excuse should I use to make it the most likely to be deceived?

Whatever you choose, the highest priority is

"⋯Ah, here you go. Mom, I'll hang up."

"Oh, draw. Eat well."

"Huh."

It was just hanging up the phone.

"Autumn. But… Is that your girlfriend?"

After that, I hesitated for a while at my sister's words that immediately followed.

Winter is fully embraced in my arms,

First of all, you won't be able to see your face in my sister's eyes.

Perhaps,

Could I pretend I brought my girlfriend secretly?

⋯About 3 minutes,

If you're good at it, you might be able to cheat.

It wasn't hard to realize that it didn't make any sense.

"⋯It's winter."

"⋯Yes."

So that winter does not wake up,

I carefully got out of the blanket.

After watching for a moment that he exhaled in a steady rhythm,

I came out of the room with my sister.

"Uh, autumn."

"What is your sister doing here?"

"Ana? I… Ran away here because my dad was drunk…"

Let's stay calm.

Stay calm.

The more embarrassed you are, the more suspicious you will look.

"It looks like your mother gave you the password."

"Uh, my aunt told me."

"Sister, would you like some coffee?"

"⋯Yes."

As naturally as possible,

I went to the kitchen and poured water into the coffee pot.

The silence of the short time waiting for boiling,

It was so awkward that I wanted to vomit.

"Here."

"⋯Thank you."

"⋯Did you buy this?"

"Ah, it's a bit like coming bare-handed."

Looking around the table, there was a chicken box.

Still hot, freshly fried chicken.

"Winter will wake up later and we should eat together."

"⋯Autumn."

"Yes, sister."

"Could you please explain?"

"What explanation?"

"Why did you sleep with Winter?"

I wanted to avoid the topic somehow, but

It came out softer than I thought.

⋯Is it difficult to avoid?

"It's nothing. It's just that Winter is a bit anxious."

"What?"

"My older sister probably couldn't hear it. He had a little bit of a panic attack after taking the mock exam in September."

"⋯Really?"

"At that time, after I calmed down a bit, it got better. Sometimes, when my mother isn't around, I lose my temper."

"⋯."

"At that time, I patted him a little, and he felt fine again."

"Have you been to the hospital?"

"He says he doesn't want to go."

"Do you know my aunt?"

"You don't know."

"⋯Can I tell your aunt?"

"⋯I didn't say it on purpose because I was afraid you would be anxious. You can do it if you want."

"⋯Isn't that a lie?"

"No."

I realized for the first time today that I am such a shameless person.

I am not a person who is good at lying.

Concoct a plausible situation,

Create a character that suits you

It's acting

"Autumn."

"Uh."

"Your way of speaking is strange."

"⋯What."

"You don't normally talk like that."

"⋯I'm embarrassed too."

"Why?"

"I know it might look a little strange to other people."

"Are you sleeping with your little sister?"

"It's not like we hugged each other."

"Then what is it?"

"He said he was having a hard time, so I put him to sleep and he fell asleep with me."

"⋯Look at my sister and believe me?"

"Believe it or not, noona likes it, but it's true."

"What if I don't believe you?"

"I'm proud, so I have nothing more to say."

I thought I was well immersed in the character, but

It seems that there was a big distance from the usual me.

⋯This is why I'm not good at lying.

Tea is too good.

"⋯I won't go around bragging about it."

"It doesn't matter whether you say it or not?"

"Kim Ga-eul."

"Is it strange that an older brother takes care of a younger sister?"

"Hey."

"Why."

"⋯Is your sister really angry?"

"I don't know why my sister is angry."

"⋯Sister, I'm not angry because you might have done something strange."

After drinking the slightly cooled coffee, my sister sighed.

⋯It's difficult.

I think it's already wrong to pretend it's not.

Making up something that didn't exist is very difficult.

"Tell your sister. Why is that?"

"⋯If you say something, something will change."

"Nothing will change."

"What if I don't want to change?"

"Okay? Should I just tell my aunt what you want?"

"If you listen, can you handle it?"

"⋯What?"

"If you really hear why, can you handle it?"

"You, really…"

"If you find out why Winter is sleeping in my room, will your sister take care of it?"

"⋯."

"Are you sure you won't tell anyone after hearing that?"

"Kim Ga-eul."

"You know I don't want to fucking talk too, do you?"

Fuck you.

I just sucked everything up.

I thought I'd get caught someday

She knew it, and she had always been thinking about how to deal with it.

But nothing goes my way.

Nothing was going the way I thought it would.

Yes,

I can't stop making excuses.

If you give up even that, the end is too obvious.

"⋯I don't want to be angry with my sister either."

"⋯Autumn."

"It just sucks. Bitch. Fuck it, i'm crazy I don't know what to do… Do you think I wouldn't have refused?"

"⋯."

"⋯I didn't. Something like that Strange."

"Kim Ga-eul."

"What do you say to me? It's his entrance exam. He's my brother How can I tell you not to do that, to give up?"

"⋯."

"⋯Don't just tell Mom. You will be worried."

Even after coming here, everything is improvised.

Excuses, lies, made-up stories.

In the end, not even a single word of truth can come out,

My reality,

It was our reality.

"⋯Nuna never intended to tell me."

"Yes."

"Autumn. ⋯Georyeong is a senior in high school."

"Know."

"It is the most anxious time. The college entrance exam is right around the corner."

"⋯."

"Isn't it you who is always by my side?"

"⋯Uh."

"He can count on you."

"So it was."

"⋯You need to wake up."

"⋯I'm trying."

"Can my sister trust you?"

"⋯I'll try something."

"Tell me if the winter is hard. My sister will help too."

"Sometimes… I'll ask you."

"Okay. The chicken will cool down eat."

"⋯Will winter wake you up?"

"No. Let me sleep I'll go see my sister."

"Where are you going?"

"I have a friend nearby. You can ask for it to be served."

"⋯Okay. Sister."

As if seeing a sick patient,

As if looking at a neighbor in need,

My older sister, who sympathized with us with her sad and pitiful eyes,

Disappeared out of the house

⋯ The worst was prevented.

I laughed out loud at the fact that this was the first thought that came to my mind even after this situation happened.

Know.

As long as we don't hide our feelings from each other, we're bound to find out someday.

If you get caught, no matter how well you try to excuse yourself, this will happen.

You can look at me as cute as a mistake I made when I was young.

You look sad and pitiful, so you might be able to help.

But in the end

It is a wrong answer, so it is said to be corrected.

"⋯Brother."

"Uh."

"⋯Is your sister out?"

"⋯I'm out."

Winter, who pretended to sleep, came out of the room.

⋯ I hope you heard it all.

I'm sorry that it seems like you covered everything upside down.

But you can't help it.

The moment I say it right away, it's all my responsibility,

Then we can't be together.

"⋯Are you okay?"

"It's not okay."

"⋯."

"Winter."

"Huh."

"⋯I'm just an older brother."

I was lucky this time.

The other person is very understanding

He was an adult with a heavy mouth,

I just came up with a suitable excuse just in time.

But there's no guarantee that the next time will be the same.

There are definitely situations where even excuses are impossible.

After passing by several times,

It's just that I've been lucky that I haven't had it so far.

"⋯Brother."

"Even if I die and wake up, I won't be able to get married."

Hate.

I hate to do this.

But,

I hate being apart from winter.

"I'm such a fucking selfish bastard, I can't see you getting married either."

Above all,

The thing that makes Winter fall in love with someone else more than me is,

I don't like looking back.

He dies by biting his tongue on the cheek bar.

"Let's just do brother and sister. ⋯Let's live together as brothers and sisters for the rest of our lives. The three of us with mom."

"⋯."

"⋯I'll be patient."

"⋯You can't. Brother. To be patient."

"It's not that I can't. It's because I don't want to do that."

"⋯Sorry."

"Did you know that? To make me unbearable."

"I didn't know that being unbearable would be like that."

"⋯Don't do that in the future. If you don't touch me, I won't either."

"Yes."

It's not a matter of being patient or not.

You just have to be patient.

If you wanted to cross the line, you shouldn't have been caught.

There was only this to remain as siblings.

"Let's eat chicken. It hasn't cooled down yet."

"Huh."

"Coke… There is Coke Zero in the refrigerator, so if you want to drink it, take it out and drink it."

"⋯I just want to drink what my sister bought me."

"Call your sister later. He said he misses unnie because he's been in an unstable state of mind lately."

"It's kind of a lie to lie to my sister, but…"

"You pretended to be asleep earlier."

"I didn't pretend to sleep. ⋯I couldn't come out because the atmosphere was bloody."

"Really?"

"Really."

When will this relationship break down?

⋯ Is it collapsing?

Forcibly,

If you force yourself apart,

Will you lose your heart?

It's a feeling that has already accumulated while we were apart.

"⋯Winter."

"Huh."

"Sorry."

"⋯Suddenly why?"

"I thought you were the only one who made a strange person."

"I am not stupid."

"If you know, can you give me a compliment? I almost exploded her head trying to make it up."

The younger brother who was sitting next to her pondered for a moment and then said,

Stroked my hair

I feel like I'm being treated like a child

I don't feel bad.

Sometimes,

It would be okay to be treated as a younger sister by her sister.

"⋯Sister, what do you think?"

"Don't you think that you like me one-sidedly?"

"What is that."

"You did that to your friend. I did a little bit."

"⋯You're a liar, brother too."

"It can't be helped. When it comes to my responsibility, there are no excuses."

"⋯Sure."

"Because I am older. ⋯In most cases, it's my fault."

"Huh."

"So let's pretend it's your fault for a second. Make it naturally, something that never happened."

"⋯."

"⋯ Let's live together like that. Family."

I don't even think this is correct.

But since this is the only thing left to protect,

You can't help it.

I kind of expected it to happen.

⋯So I wanted to pretend not to know.

Because while we were hugging, it didn't seem like he was my younger brother.

I wish I hadn't been a brother and sister

Because I inadvertently thought of it.

So,

It's time to wake up from the dream