Suspiciously Close Siblings (Going Up)

I woke up a little later than usual, so I was calmer than I thought.

Because when you wake up, most things will be fine.

I walked out of the room and opened the leftover chicken box I ate yesterday.

It was difficult to eat both of them together.

It was also around the time that I had just had dinner.

Biting off a piece of cooled chicken breast, it was cold and hard, choking my throat.

It wasn't that it wasn't tasteless though, so I gobbled up all the leftovers.

Before her mother came back, she had done all the washing and cleaning.

Whether it was thinking deeply or hitting it, my head was complicated, so I had to hold on to something to feel comfortable.

I opened the window to ventilate, and I felt with my body that it was really winter.

While vacuuming the living room,

Brother woke up

"Hi."

"Yes, good morning. Brother."

"It's lunch, not breakfast."

"It's still morning at 10:30."

"Then, let's hit it as a point. Eat rice quickly Are not you hungry?"

"⋯If my brother prepares it."

"Is soy sauce egg rice okay?"

"Doesn't care."

"Wait a little."

I said hello as usual.

He joked as usual.

We chatted as usual.

I ate as usual.

Really,

It was a weekend like usual.

***

While I was studying English in my room, the phone rang.

When someone said it, it was a friend who went to the army.

Are you already answering the phone these days?

Lose the kid⋯.

Actually, it's been almost two months since I enlisted, so it's about time.

I became disillusioned with myself for being a bitch before I knew it, and when I thought about it, I remembered the fact that I was a civilian.

Yes, if you're a civilian, maybe.

I received the phone call with pleasure.

"Yes, this is civilian Kim Ga-eul. Is the private soldier going to work for lunch on the weekend?"

"Hey, this dog, why didn't you send it?"

"Well, you didn't send me when I went to the army either."

"I heard you used it when I was drinking last time."

"Is it?"

"You're so bad you can't even remember?"

"Then can you let me go now?"

"Go away."

Even though he became a soldier, he was a friend who never changed.

I also turned around and turned around, but it didn't change.

"When are you going on vacation?"

"I don't know, but it looks like I'll be leaving soon."

"What, are you coming out already?"

"No, I was also cut off from staying out for graduation, but I have to let you go once."

"What is graduation nights out, you bastard."

"There is a machine unique to Air Force."

"It must be the public interest."

"No, that's why I can't communicate with the ground dog."

"Yes, I am a civilian."

No matter how hard you try, seeing him sticking his neck into an impossible fight makes me think that he is also a very honest friend.

Why are you teasing me, anyway?

"Anyway, I'll let you know when the vacation schedule is set, so let's get the kids together and have a drink."

"Report the schedule."

"What the fuck, do I have to meet another girlfriend?"

"I'm still pissed because I don't have a girlfriend. Come to think of it, did you not get dumped by your girlfriend?"

"I'm still fine."

"When you go on vacation, you meet your girlfriend, why are you looking for a friend?"

I mean, I prioritized my family over my friends on vacation.

Do not order delivery food and eat home-cooked meals,

Going out to dinner with family members,

Did you go to an amusement park with your brother on the weekend?

I don't remember very well.

Of course, I had a drink with my friends.

"I think I will spend 6 days and 5 nights, so I have plenty of time."

"Why do you take such a long vacation for recruits?"

"Aren't you saying not to judge by the standards of the land?"

"Well, he's a patriot who voluntarily adds up to three months of military service, but that might be the case."

"Damn it, see you when it comes out."

"I don't know why the active duty is broken by the military man. Doesn't your mouth hurt?"

"⋯You really get punished for doing that. I will pray earnestly to break up with my girlfriend."

"⋯It's broken, asshole."

"What?"

"Chained because I'm an asshole."

"⋯I knew that."

"Let's go out and have a drink."

"Okay."

"Until then, I will earnestly pray that you will wear rubber shoes backwards."

"Go away. Hang up."

While I was praying deeply in my heart that my friend would not be able to make it past the end of the day, the phone call was cut off.

It feels like the creases in her brain have stiffened from just saying stupid things.

Thanks to that, I forgot everything I was studying.

⋯ Well, it doesn't matter.

I went to the kitchen and made her coffee with the mindset of starting from zero again.

I wanted to take care of my brother as well as drink, so I knocked on the door with a cup of milk coffee.

"Kim Winter, coffee."

"Ah, yes."

"Drink and study hard."

"Yes."

After handing over the coffee, I hurriedly went back to my room.

Are you okay?

Till now.

As I was holding the pen again as I hit the caffeine into my brain, my sister called me.

Just do your best, etc.

Was the chicken delicious?

There was a lot of rhetoric, but it was a word that encouraged me.

⋯ Thank you, but

Even knowing that the last words were insulting, could they encourage her?

After answering appropriately, I threw myself on the bed.

Frustrated.

Really.

Just as I was about to fall asleep with my eyes closed,

Her mother came back and said that she was still sleeping even though it was dark, and she was awakened by a slap on her back.

She said that she had done all the cleaning, so I didn't get angry because she said she did a good job and did something delicious.

***

It was past midnight, but it was still snowing.

Amazing. I think I just studied all day.

Maybe it was because I drank too much coffee, so I couldn't sleep at all.

Tomorrow, no The date has changed, so I'm glad today is Sunday.

Because you can't sleepy driving after oversleeping.

I was in a good mood, so I dragged a pair of slippers and headed to the convenience store.

I bought a large orange juice and cheddar cheese for a snack.

I returned home, threw it on the kitchen table, and pulled out a bottle I had stored in the freezer.

The clear and transparent water of life.

I opened the cold lid and poured it into a drinking glass.

I filled the remaining space with juice to the end, took a spoon and stirred it, and the orange juice was complete.

I felt at ease as I sipped each sip and ate the cheese I bought with me.

This is it

It is bullshit that soju is sweet because life is bitter.

Feeling the bitter taste of fear, even alcohol should be eaten sweetly.

And soju does its job apart from being bitter.

After playing a movie on my tablet, while I was savoring the third drink, pour it,

"⋯Son, aren't you sleeping?"

"Ah… Mom."

Mom came out into the kitchen.

"What are you doing at this hour?"

"⋯Watch a movie."

"Orange juice in a movie?"

"I'm suddenly craving it."

She walked over here with her eyes wide open, looked at the bottle of vodka, and said something.

"⋯Are you drinking?"

"⋯You can eat it."

"What, is something wrong?"

"No."

"Then why are you doing this in such an awkward way? Come in and drink."

"⋯I will."

That's it.

What are you doing stupidly

She takes a bite of what's left of the glass, and her mother sits across from her with a worried look on her face.

"Have you ever said goodbye?"

"⋯You know I don't have a girlfriend."

"So, did you confess?"

"⋯."

I shook my head.

But how did you understand, he continued on with what he was saying.

"Who said they didn't like our handsome son? That's because he lacks human eyes."

"⋯It's not like that."

"⋯Are you okay?"

"Yes."

"If you're hungry, can I cook some ramen for you?"

"No, I'm full."

"Tell your mother. What happened."

⋯ Can't speak

Being a mother, even more so.

If you don't talk, you can pass it off as something that didn't happen.

If I hadn't known at all, I could have opened my heart.

With the feeling of shouting in the bamboo forest.

I tried to put a knife through my mother's heart.

Called.

"⋯Just what⋯. I had someone I liked. She doesn't fit in many ways ⋯"

"They say he doesn't like you?"

"It's not like that… It's not all about liking each other."

"What is not good in this day and age? It works."

"It didn't work. ⋯The situation is complicated."

"⋯Really?"

"So we decided to just be friends. It fits well…"

"⋯Is your son crying?"

"Yes? What are you crying for?"

"What is the boy crying about? Oh my, it really is crying."

No, I don't really cry.

It is unfair.

It's just that the situation is emotional, so my eyes are a little moist.

I don't cry with stuff like this.

Until just now, it was sweet and I felt good, really.

This is dirty

"Cheer up, son. There are so many girls in the world who might like you."

"Ah, there wasn't much, what."

"My mom likes you, your sister likes you, and your cousins ​​and aunts all like you."

"⋯That and this are different."

"Because you are loved by your family, you will find people outside who will like you."

"⋯Nothing like that. I will live without getting married."

"It's up to you whether you want to get married or not, but try meeting a lot of people. Don't you know?"

Don't you know?

Really?

⋯I think I know.

Even while talking to my mother,

Even at this moment when you should be at ease.

"Oh, I don't know. I will just live with my mother and winter."

"He's drunk, he's drunk. Hurry up and let's go to Divi."

"Oh, what are you taking? I'm not drunk with this."

"A drunk kid crying in front of her mother?"

"Ah, I really didn't cry!"

"Ugh, why is a kid who went to the military doing this disgustingly?"

"⋯I'll just brush my teeth and sleep. Mom has to go to work tomorrow too, so she should go in and sleep soon."

"Okay. Her mom will sleep too, so you should stop drinking and go to sleep."

"Yes, yes."

Her mother drank her glass of water and she went back to her room.

After the bedroom door was closed, the bottle was put back into the freezer and the remaining cheese was crumpled into the refrigerator.

⋯It's difficult.

Difficult.

I have no one to confide in,

It's very difficult.