Suspiciously Close Siblings (Going Up)

"Unnie, I'll go~ Goodbye to autumn~"

"Yes."

"Go in carefully, sister."

A bit late in the morning

After the three of us had our first meal of ramen together, my older sister smiled and went back.

⋯Good thing.

I thought I was being rational last night,

Looking back after waking up, I think I was just drunk and crazy.

What were you thinking?

What,

It was a bit better than winter, though.

When my sister disappeared, only me and winter remained in the house again.

It would be awkward to see each other face to face, so I hurriedly ran to my room.

⋯ Ha.

Maybe not good

What to do,

What is the answer

The more I take a step, the darker it feels.

But to go back,

It seems that we have come too far.

***

No matter how much you lock yourself in your room, you cannot avoid seeing each other all day long.

I also need to eat

Sometimes the lines may overlap.

But it was very different from usual.

Conversation too,

Even the jokes we often played together,

⋯Things that shouldn't be done.

Not all

Saturday, which would normally have passed without difficulty,

It was too long for me.

I couldn't sleep comfortably.

So it was nice to have a Sunday morning that came back.

At least I didn't want to be like this in my room.

Without doing anything,

I didn't want to stay still.

Around lunchtime, I opened the next door and entered.

Gye-ryeol hid under the blanket and stared blankly at the ceiling.

"Winter."

"⋯Ah, yes. Brother."

"Would you like to go out to buy me some clothes?"

"⋯Clothes?"

"You did that last time. I want you to pick out clothes."

"Ah… Yes."

"Let's get ready to go out. Eat lunch outside."

"Yes."

It's not that I didn't have a twinge of conscience in taking my little brother who had a little fever until yesterday.

There were so many things I had to apologize for now that I'm sorry for that.

There doesn't seem to be any heat either.

You have to keep what you promised.

In fact, I put several rhetoric on it, but that's it in the end.

I can't be alone

No more

***

Both wrapped up their bodies in cold weather gear and left the house.

It's not below freezing, but it's a headache if you catch a cold.

I didn't intend to go far, but I opened the car door because I was carrying clothes in both hands.

I took off the muffler that was wrapped around my neck and threw it inside, and sat side by side in the driver's and passenger's seats for the first time in a long time.

How long can we ride together like this?

When Mom returns, she will have to return the car keys soon.

It's kind of a pity that I'm kind of settled.

"Let's eat first."

"Huh."

"What do you want to eat."

"⋯I want to go there some other time. I ate with my older sister… The four of us."

"Ah… I was going to go there again."

Because it was delicious.

Lunch⋯, is it cheaper for lunch?

It seems that there was a lunch set.

I started the engine and tried to get out of the car, but the cell phone hung on the holder rang.

It's mom

I answered the call and put it on speaker phone.

"Oh, Mom."

"Son, what are you doing?"

"I'm pulling the car out to eat with Winter."

"In this weather?"

"Well… You're well dressed."

"Winter caught a cold."

"⋯Did you hear?"

"Anna said so."

"The fever is gone, and I don't feel sick. I had a slight fever from the start, but it wasn't a bad cold."

"Okay?"

"Sure."

"Then let the winter change. I won't be by your side."

When Kyeol-gyeol, who was in the passenger seat, chinned her, she took off her mask and opened her mouth.

"Mom."

"Yes, my daughter. Are you okay?"

"Yes I'm fine."

"Does your voice sound bad?"

"No, no, it's really okay. No fever, no pain."

"Okay? What⋯, okay. Well, I came out all the way to eat something delicious."

"Uh, pasta?"

"Do you want to eat pasta with your brother?"

"Huh."

"Yes, enjoy your meal. Dress warmly."

"Okay."

"Make it expensive. At a time like this, you should get it from your older brother."

"Yes?"

"Son, buy me something expensive."

"⋯Yes."

"Anyway, enjoy your lunch. Mommy will be back soon, so if you go, she'll cook for you what you want to eat."

"All right."

"Then I'll quit mom, be careful driving~"

"Yep."

I hung up the phone and slowly pulled out of the parked car.

Winter put the mask on his mouth again.

⋯Well, you don't have to do that in the car.

I was worried about it, so I started talking.

"Let's eat lunch, go to a cafe, rest, buy clothes, and go back."

"Huh."

"Eat dinner at home if you can."

"Yes."

"What about tomorrow, do you have any promises?"

"Probably… I don't think there is."

"Where do you want to go to play tomorrow?"

"⋯ Huh?"

"Although it's a bit cold, let's play outside. The exam is over."

"⋯."

"If you want to go, tell me. It's Monday, but you're not going to school anyway. From now on."

"Yes."

"If you're going for a day trip, I'll take you there if you can."

"⋯It's okay. I want you to stay home."

"⋯Yeah, what. Then let's rest at home."

Winter's face still wearing a mask,

She still didn't like it.

***

Winter, which was in a low-pressure state, seemed to feel somewhat relieved, perhaps because he breathed in the outside air.

Have a good lunch,

We were going to spend some time at the cafe, but they said we needed to take out, so we took one each and drank together in the car.

While I was in the car, I also turned on a movie and watched it together.

Talking about this and that while drinking something sweet made it a little less awkward.

When we went shopping for clothes, neither of us knew fashion, so we just bought and wore the mannequin as it was.

The eyes of the staff there must be more accurate than our eyes.

It's definitely because I'm on the long side, so the coat suited me well.

It was so cute to see her shyly grabbing the hem of her skirt after trying it on.

No, I only wear skirts when I was in school.

Anyway, I don't know much about fashion.

I knew very well that hangers were more important than clothes.

While wearing it, I took some pictures and sent them to her mother.

I didn't know that it would go round and round on her youngest aunt and reach her older sister.

If I'm going to buy clothes, I'll take my sister too. Why did you do that?

What?

I'll have to watch this myself.

I bought it because Kyeol-gyeol insisted on spending so much money to buy it with his own money.

He said that he would send money to my account, so I rather asked him to buy my clothes later.

He said that he would understand only then, and obediently loaded the clothes he had worn from home into the back seat.

It was very emotional to see Gye-gyeol sitting in the seat next to him wearing the new clothes he had bought.

This makes me look like a real college student.

Actually, I am a college student.

"Winter."

"Huh."

"It was fun?"

"It was…It was fun."

"Shall we eat until dinner?"

"No, that… It was over. I just want to go in."

She drove slowly and headed home.

It didn't take long to arrive at the parking lot because it didn't come out that far from the beginning.

I parked the car and came out right away.

I looked up at the sky as I was directly hit by the biting air.

Even if it's slow, it's over.

Mom, too, because she'll be back on Tuesday.

Not much chance

Because I said I won't be leaving tomorrow.

Can not help it.

Out now

"⋯Winter."

"Huh."

"Do you want to date me? With me."

"⋯ Huh?"

Winter, who had been staring blankly at me, widened his eyes in surprise.

⋯Honestly, I can't make eye contact.

Still have to see

Me too,

I didn't know what to say.

I never thought I would be such a lonely person.

"⋯Brother?"

"Only when I'm outside."

"⋯."

"Let's stay as lovers."

"⋯."

"It seemed impossible. ⋯Going back to normal."

I thought about it many times.

Looking at the face of the frosty winter.

Slightly swollen and congested,

Look at those eyes

I just couldn't stay still.

Sexual desire or what, it's not like that.

All of that is secondary.

That's the most important 4-point problem.

Those who have already known warmth,

It was also about realizing that being alone is cold.

"Even my cousin does well, living together without getting married."

"⋯."

"Even if we… Stay at home as siblings. Outside, just like a normal couple, would you like to ⋯?"

"⋯Brother."

"Ah, I didn't mean to do something like that… There's something you can't do right away ⋯Even if you don't do things like after the college entrance exam. Even if you get caught and it might look a little weird, ah. Well, to the level of saying, "If you're too close, you can do that."

"Yes."

"⋯Let's just stop there."

"⋯How far?"

"Except for the erotic… There are a lot of other things. Eating together, going on dates, going out to play here and there when I feel better outside, watching a movie together, going on a trip…"

No one can quit smoking overnight.

It's not like you're suddenly getting healthier just by getting rid of all the cigarettes.

Because of the accumulated desire, a person suffers from withdrawal symptoms,

Or smoke again.

I've never smoked, so I don't know for sure.

I could understand the sentiment.

I didn't want to either.

I didn't want to die of lung cancer.

So,

In a healthy way.

It doesn't matter that even that is harmful,

Still, it'll be better than what I've done so far.

It's like a supplement to quit properly.

Maybe I'll get addicted to those supplements.

"⋯Let's date. We."

"Brother and sister, ⋯ can't we?"

"⋯I can't."

"⋯."

"Since I can't… Let's date."

"⋯."

"Because it's good even outside… That… Uh…"

My tongue broke because I had spit out all the words I thought before I knew it.

But,

It was fine.

Because you nodded

Sometimes there is a timing that doesn't even need words.

Because language is not the only means of communication.

"⋯Brother."

"Uh."

"⋯Hug me."

"That's it… That's it, what…"

I never thought I would know the texture of the new clothes I bought so quickly.

Soft.

It's warm because it's winter clothes.

Seems worth the money spent.

Well, it's the warmth itself… It comes from people.

It doesn't matter.

Hangers, clothes, whatever.

Because that's not what's important.

"⋯Hug me a little tighter."

With a little more force, both of them felt slightly choked.

Entangle each other,

Obsessed,

Holding together a weakness that no one should find out about,

Gradually sinking into the water.

Although it should be terrifying,

I liked it.

So,

It was good.

They held each other until the sun completely disappeared.

It's good that he's hiding behind the car.

Sometimes I cover my face from people entering the apartment.

Well… I can't even see you in my eyes.

Even though you can't see me in your eyes

It was all stored in my head anyway, so there was no problem.

Winter, buried in my shoulder, fell away from me for a moment.

Then he looked straight into my eyes.

⋯Ah,

I don't think this will work.

"⋯Brother."

"Huh."

"Kissing… You shouldn't…"

"If I had to argue, well…Because I belong to the naughty side."

It's the kiss itself… Even if it could.

If you get there, maybe

It will be enough to smoke a cigarette in your mouth.

The moment you take a breath, you are a failure to quit smoking.

So instead,

On the forehead of winter looking up at me,

He lightly kissed his lips.

"That… Brother?"

"⋯ It's okay up to this point."

"⋯."

Winter, who had closed his eyes, glared at me,

Raise your tiptoe slightly,

The same hit my lips on my forehead.

Then put your feet back on the ground,

Smiled lightly at me.

⋯Surely,

It sounds like you picked the wrong option completely.

No way like this

I don't think I can quit.