She Returned as a Vampire

5 – Things You Only See After Losing

You have to lose something to know it was valuable.

The stories of countless people have accumulated and been handed down to future generations with only bitter endings.

It is said that spilled water cannot be undone, and mistakes once made cannot be corrected, so always be careful.

Pride and arrogance are sins, so please avoid them.

Innumerable people passed on their stories to future generations.

And what was the reason those stories popped into her head now?

Seeing her ears starting to point, she stared blankly at herself in the mirror.

‘Do well while you’re there.’

The simple word

Could not pierce her heart so sharply.

It’s been about two days since I didn’t eat blood.

However, the fact that he still had some energy left in his body seemed to be starting to get a sense of how much blood he needed to drink.

Of course, the fact that the thirst didn’t go away was the angry part.

“Are you asking me to drink blood without end…?”

It felt like my neck was cracking, and I was starting to get very nervous.

Two days after cutting off the blood.

Niel was still struggling to replenish his lack of blood and energy by eating soup and bread as if he was possessed.

I was angry that I was so anxious because I couldn’t stand a few sips of blood.

“Why was I so selfish, I.”

After she changed, she couldn’t resent the things she saw until she lived with him.

I think of his devoted image of always putting himself first, respecting his choices, and adapting to himself.

After seeing him showing an unchanging appearance even to himself who became a monster, his own actions came to mind one by one.

She casually utters words that could hurt him,

She complained to him, who always carefully planned and prepared for a safe adventure, saying that he was slow.

Then, when he completed the work without much difficulty with the preparations he had prepared, the times of criticizing him, saying that the work went well with his own merits, passed before his eyes.

“Worst, worst… I…”

He doesn’t even have the confidence to look in the mirror anymore, he cries in the corner of the bathroom, squashed-

If I could do it to my past self, I wanted to slap it hard right now.

But what is the use of all these thoughts?

Eventually, the water spilled over, and his lover almost died from her blood.

He would have died if he hadn’t stopped his vampirism.

Looking back, it was a problem from not knowing how much and drinking so much.

Drinking so much that both thirst and hunger disappeared,

I didn’t even pay attention to him moaning in pain.

Now that I think about it, it was.

That’s right.

He tried to hold it in with his teeth gritting, always giving his arm to himself.

…I’m afraid that if I hear that sound, I’ll pull my teeth out, so I’m sure that’s why I listened patiently.

A foolish person, full of regret…!

I really hated myself for constantly trying to blame his personality,

He hadn’t noticed before, and he was angry because he was so pitiful.

If I had known sooner, if I had paid more attention to him sooner,

If I had been able to follow even half of his consideration, I’m sure this wouldn’t have happened.

There would be no reason to curse this fate of being afraid of the sun, afraid of people, and unable to live without sucking the blood of the person you love.

I even thought about dying so that I wouldn’t bother him anymore, but…

His image flickers before my eyes as he said with a smile that he would risk anything for the sake of the one he loves.

I even lost the courage to take a step under the scorching sunlight.

How much I cried in the shadows for a long time, how silently I trembled.

I wished that the countless tears shed would rather become blood that was lacking for him.

The reality that doesn’t change even if you regret it is so cruel, I just wished all of this was a dream.

If it was to punish his arrogance, why should he bear all the pain he would do only to himself?

Simply because he’s too selfless? For the sin of loving himself? Because of the fact that he couldn’t let go of himself and tried to embrace him?

The more she chews, the more she catches his weakened figure in her eyes, repeats it in her head, and helps with her body, the more she realizes that her heart toward him is getting stronger. I felt desperate.

A person who deserves too much for himself. He’s too good a person to have.

She asked her conscience whether it would be okay if she dared to love her, who had become a monster, and whether it would be a nuisance to hold him by her side.

Even though she already knew she was wrong,

Knowing that she is a horse that attaches to his kindness like a parasite and sucks blood as she pleases,

Although he knows full well that he is not qualified to love him who is unchangingly lovable and devoted.

If I didn’t do that, I wouldn’t be able to explain that I was by his side.

Because if I didn’t do this, I would be so miserable.

She felt like she would become an ugly woman who couldn’t live up to his wishes for her to live.

She abused herself and tried to stay by his side.

Because of this, she had to endure the pain as if her heart was being torn into dozens of pieces.

“I’m sorry… I’m sorry…”

3 Days before her change, that was all she could say as she recalled the smile he had sent away smiling at her.

With all she could do, she felt more miserable than ever.

She

Even though she couldn’t be a person, she couldn’t be a shameless monster.

She had to endure her pain.

***

“No. It’s not the limit yet.”

“You’re in trouble if you do this. It’s been three days since I haven’t drank.”

I held out my arm once more to her who had lost her complexion, which had been getting better, like a lie.

“Drink, I think you’ll get in trouble if you do this.”

“No, no! I can’t drink when I know you’re about to die!”

Now, shivering, I pushed me onto the bed and grabbed her arm as she tried to crawl into the corner.

“Let go, let go…!”

Showing me her long fangs, like a wild beast, she growled at me.

Like a cat puffing up its fur and making sharp sounds to scare away strangers.

After a wheezing sound that cut through the air, it was still silence.

“…Look at this, isn’t it scary? I might not be the person you used to know anymore.”

“Elena,”

“So stop it, I don’t want to drink your blood to the point of killing you.”

After reuniting with her, it became more frequent to see her tears instead of smiles, so my heart was sinking.

I want her to be happy, I want her to be happy,

There was nothing more painful than that, as everything she did to help her live led to her unhappiness.

“…But you have to eat blood.”

Seeing her condition where I couldn’t even shake off the arm I was holding on to, I tried to put my hand back into her arms.

“Don’t do it.”

Her determined voice grabbed my hand.

“Look, your hands are shaking.”

It was as she said.

Sucking blood was painful and scary at the same time.

No matter how many times I repeated that it was for her, her frozen, trembling hands did not think to stop.

“I-I’m fine. I’m trying to save you.”

Even if I lied about not being afraid, or even if I tried to push myself, this guy’s hand wouldn’t listen at all.

“…Please, can’t I take care of you first? I said I didn’t want to see you sick.”

“I’d rather see you die.”

I couldn’t concede that much.

I wish I could live as long as she did even if I was sick.

After saying that, I had the courage to put my hand deep into your bosom,

It was next that I noticed that the dagger was not in its place.

“I put it away, long ago. That damn dagger.”

With her head down, a few more of her tears fell to the floor and she gently pushed me onto the bed, laying my head on the pillow.

“…I’ll try to adjust it as much as possible this time. So…”

Her face, which came closer to my neck instead of her arm, became even more beautiful.

The color of his lips was a little faded – but maybe it’s because he’s a vampire who has to bewitch people in order to suck blood.

The changed impression of her was deadly yet beautiful.

Like her rose with thorns, I was drawn to her red eyes.

“Whoa… Whoa…”

As expected, I wonder if I can’t control my excitement because I can’t suck blood.

Her rough breath landed on the bridge of my nose, and then her face leaned against my neck.

But before heading for her neck, she stopped lowering her head and-

“Side, tsuk…”

I put her on my lips.

Feeling the tenderness of her moist, slightly cold lips,

I accepted her tongue tapping on my closed teeth.

In a way, she caresses her back to reassure her.

He touched her face once.

“Okay. I’ll tell you if it’s dangerous.”

Of course, I’m talking about when she’s full.

Unwilling to yield to her in her bad condition, I gave a false smile,

Looking at me with her doubtful eyes, she finally nodded her head.

Gently, I turned her head to the side and held out her neck, feeling her lips touch the tight muscles of her neck and closing her eyes.

It wasn’t long after her lips touched that I noticed that she had changed.