Suspiciously Close Siblings (Going Up)

"⋯."

"⋯."

It fell off his thigh reflexively.

His brother headed for the water purifier without a word.

The sound of pouring water was frighteningly loud.

⋯What can I do?

"⋯Brother."

"⋯ Kim fall, Kim winter."

"Ah yes."

"Huh."

"That, I… Don't want to mess around."

Embarrassed, the older brother also began to stutter his words.

Maybe it was because he was awake, his voice was muted.

He cleared his throat for a moment, then resumed his conversation.

"I know it can be because you guys are close… But the elders can misunderstand it."

"⋯."

"Behave well. Don't get suspicious for nothing."

"⋯Uh."

"It's just because we like each other."

"⋯Right."

"It's good that siblings are close, and I like everything… But don't act strangely when people you don't know see you."

"⋯Yes."

"⋯Did you understand what I was saying?"

"Yes."

After leaving a few words of advice, the older brother gulped down his water and went back to his room.

He ⋯ thought his heart was dropping.

As soon as he wiped his surprised heart, the closed door opened again.

"⋯ Don't you guys have a pillow?"

"Ah, that… Yes."

"⋯I'm sorry hyung. Just wait."

He went into the room again and took a blanket and a couple of pillows and threw them at us.

"Sleep on a blanket. Sleeping on the sofa hurts your back."

"Ah, thank you…"

"It's late, go to bed."

After saying the last words, my older brother disappeared into the room.

⋯ After.

Are you lucky?

Whether it is not

"⋯Winter."

"Yes."

"⋯Go back to your sister's room and sleep. A bed would be better than a floor."

"Brother."

Winter got up and took my hand.

⋯ He also broke out in a cold sweat.

Each other's hands are wet

"Let's go to the convenience store."

"Uh?"

"⋯I want to get some fresh air."

"⋯Yes."

I did not refuse the pulling force.

Because it was an outing anyway,

There was no need for either of them to change their clothes.

***

It was autumn, so the morning weather was quite chilly.

Despite the long sleeves and long pants, the cold seeped into every nook and cranny of his body.

Still, it was not a bad temperature to get drunk.

"⋯ Welcome."

Leaving the half-drowsy voice behind, he roughly picked up two cans of coffee and counted.

And I went straight to the convenience store.

He holds a plastic bag in one hand and a hand in the other.

I went back to the front of the building and talked to Winter.

"Let's drink in tea. Everyone is sleeping."

Unlock the lock and get inside the car.

As usual, I sat in the driver's seat.

I turned on the engine and turned on the heater.

It was a little uncomfortable, so I threw the seat back.

We turned on the interior lights and shared cans one by one.

The profile of Kyeol-gyeol sitting side by side was too familiar.

"⋯You must be suspicious, we."

"⋯I guess so."

"I didn't do anything out of the ordinary."

"It's something siblings don't usually do."

I think it's also my responsibility for not being slightly drunk and not rejecting it.

Are you drunk,

Are you intoxicated by the mood?

Or at the touch of your thighs,

Are you drunk?

"⋯From now on."

"Uh."

"⋯What do you want to do, oppa?"

"Like what?"

"A little more… Should we keep our distance. Or should I go unnoticed?"

"⋯Well."

Keep your distance.

My brother and I touch each other's fingers,

Skin contact,

Even if you feel the temperature

I guess that's just the way it is, if only I could move on.

You don't even have to distance yourself.

Then don't listen

What should I not be aware of?

Do you love winter?

Or, a promise not to marry?

I don't want to hide it, and I don't want to hide it.

I intend to remain as a good older brother for the rest of my life,

Winter will be by my side as a special younger brother.

Wouldn't it be weirder to hide this?

"Well, maybe we need to refrain from pretending to be friendly too openly, but it's just as long as we don't do weird things."

"⋯You think so?"

"It's even weirder to keep your distance. It's not like we have any intention of doing that."

"⋯Really, do you think so?"

"I told you. I want to be with you forever as brother and sister."

"That's normal."

"Because you just have to keep the obvious."

I closed my eyes for a moment because I didn't want to think about it any more.

How long has it been

"⋯Brother."

Winter, who was sitting next to me, called me.

And then

I'm not sitting next to you anymore.

Cross the console box,

Got on top of me

"⋯Can you really protect it?"

"⋯Winter."

"Are you sure you won't do anything?"

Previously, excuses were possible.

It wasn't such a dangerous scene without making excuses.

But,

Thighs and thighs touch,

The whole upper body touches from the stomach to the shoulders,

Now that you can feel your body temperature even when you are wearing clothes,

Even when he died and woke up, there was no excuse.

"⋯You said yes."

"You couldn't stand it last time."

"That's because you bit your ear."

"Then won't you stop biting your ears now?"

I brought my lips to my ears.

I didn't think it was possible so I grabbed his shoulder and pushed him away.

"You said to live honorably."

"⋯You're not proud. We."

"⋯What?"

"Did you see it? With what kind of eyes he sees us."

"⋯No."

"Even if you don't have those feelings and live normally, ⋯we're already weird."

"⋯."

Winter's eyes met right in front of me,

It was slightly wet.

"⋯ Wait, I was mistaken too."

"What?"

"I was so happy about what my brother said. Maybe it could be like that, I thought."

"⋯."

"⋯But, it wasn't. Even things that seem ordinary… I feel like my heart will break if I get caught."

"Winter."

"Your brother is like that too. You were surprised After you get caught."

"⋯."

"⋯I don't know. What to do."

Can't stand it any longer,

He leaned his face against my chest.

The clothes were slightly wet.

"Winter."

"⋯."

"⋯Sorry. I do not know either."

When what I thought was the answer was actually wrong.

I was always angry and pissed off.

Sometimes there were times when I was right.

Still,

I need to find out why it's wrong.

I need to make a note for wrong answers.

"Wait a minute, let's keep our distance for a moment. ⋯Until the exam is over."

"Yes."

"…Just two months… Let's take our time."

"⋯Brother."

"Huh."

"⋯Since it's the last time, hug me."

"⋯."

"⋯Hug me."

"Not the last."

"⋯?"

I turned off the interior lights just in case.

Then, he wrapped his arms around Winter's back.

The remaining hand is on the waist.

Maybe it was because of the heater, I felt a little sweaty.

I don't know.

"You should take the SAT."

"Yes."

"⋯How can I think about it well in the meantime? So… Trust me."

"⋯."

"What is the answer… I'll look for it."

In order to ask for your trust, I hugged you a little tighter.

Both of them were wearing autumn clothes, so they didn't touch their skin.

So they put their necks against each other.

As a bonus, their cheeks also touched.

My body temperature needs to be conveyed, so my heart will be conveyed too.

"⋯Can I trust you?"

"Trust me. When have I ever not listened to you?"

"⋯Nothing."

"Okay. Trust me one more time."

⋯ Whoa.

Was the decision to collapse so easily?

I don't think it's been 2 weeks.

Well, if it collapses, you can build it up again and pretend it never happened.

⋯Really this time, it's not my fault.

"⋯Winter."

"Yes."

"Are you aware of this?"

"⋯What?"

"That… The one that got on it."

"I was just wondering if it would be fine if I hugged it…"

"⋯."

Going crazy.

Don't know and do that

I'm going crazy.

How can I endure it for 2 months?

"⋯Brother."

"Huh."

"Keep your distance… What are you going to do?"

"Well… I just shouldn't do things like this."

"Yes."

"Since it's two months until the CSAT, it's also the time when you have to study the hardest anyway."

"⋯."

"Hey, wait a minute, what's wrong?"

"⋯For two months. Prepayment."

Suddenly he started rubbing his cheek against my cheek.

⋯ Choking.

Even if I breathe in, I can only smell the shampoo, and my head is dizzy.

Hearing was also dominated by the sound of inhaling and exhaling breath.

Even my sense of touch has already become addicted to the softness that is transmitted every time I embrace it.

As for the sight… It's fortunate that I can't see because it's dark now,

Let's be patient as much as we can.

Because if you taste it, you won't be able to stand it.

"⋯How long do we have to stay like this?"

"Two months."

"Then you will starve to death."

"⋯I want to starve to death."

"You're not the only one dying, I'm dying too."

"We will die together."

Ah,

I think you already picked the wrong answer.

What can I do?

You can't even bite

Isn't it too much to not be able to revise the answer?

"⋯All of my relatives are right up there right now. Even though."

"Yes."

"… Let's stay like this for 10 minutes and then go back."

"Yes."

I shouldn't have turned on the heater.

It's too hot.

It was a waste of time to fall even for a moment.

I could feel the sweat pouring out of my body.

You can't see it, so you can only feel it with your senses.

Still⋯,

I didn't even like that.

10 minutes passed,

Maybe 20 minutes have passed.

Is time passing quickly?

I don't know if it flows slowly.

It feels like it has stopped.

Just the two of us,

In the car.

Cling,

Hugging

The movement of the chest, which beats periodically,

It was the only proof that time was passing.

"⋯Brother."

"Huh."

"⋯Let's go up."

"Okay."

How many times have you counted the number of people you have endured?

The oppressed heart finally fell.

When I turned off the engine and got out of the car, the cold wind cooled my sweat.

⋯.

I didn't touch my ears today.

What to do,

Will I be able to find the answer in two months?

I wasn't quite sure.